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For the Geeks Game Reviews

Almost 5 Years – A World Of Warcraft’s 5th Anniversary Inspired Post

A typical WoW screenshot in action

Yes, what you see here is a typical screenshot Cynthia and I see when we play an online game together, a massive one that players from different parts of the world gathered online.  Looks complicated but it is like driving.  After a while, it is second nature.

It’s been 5 years since World of Warcraft was launched.  Nov 23 was the date.  Wow!  Think about the subscription fees I have paid.  US$12.99 per month to be exact.  I have been their faithful subscriber since Feb 2005, when the game finally arrived in Singapore.

I am not disillusioned.  I know what is real, what is not.  There was a period of time when concerning family and friends tried their best to keep me in check, against game addiction.  I suppose if one spends too much time on something, not able to find time to do something else with someone else, collective wisdom would say: that’s no good.  And if one spends too much time on something that majority of people do not understand, collective wisdom would say: that’s even worse.  How about if one spends too much time on something that majority of people understand (or think they do), what would collective wisdom say?  Here are my thoughts.

  1. Most of us have a letter of employment that says we are paid from 9 to 5.  But yet some of us pour in more hours for no tangible outcome.
  2. Most of us are convinced that we build useful skills as our career progresses.  But how useful are these skills as time goes by?
  3. Most of us have our eyes on promotion, having a new title.  But what does the title really mean outside your office?
  4. Some of us claim that never mind the long hours because we have fun at work.  How much of those juicy war stories really mean anything to someone who is not of your work domain?

What I am trying to say is that, you too are in your own world.  Everybody does.  We all have our passion and obsession, in different forms.

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That dragon, earned it with blood and tears.

In celebrating the 5th anniversary of this one great game, fans are recounting and sharing their World of Warcraft moments online.  Hence, this post.

All Levels Begin With Number 1 (Before Death Knights Ruined It All)

The very first moment logging into the game was magical.  I was an elf.  My buddy Mark was too an elf.  Every moment in the game was new, and breathtaking.  How many of us in reality can look through the routines and find something fresh, and exciting?  Like every moment is a moment of discovery?  That mysterious forest; those spiders that killed me again and again.  Ah, good old level-lowbie.

Our Town Is Attacked Again (And Then Honor System Came And Vanquished It All)

In the good old days, opposing fractions often raged war against each other’s towns.  The first time I participated one was exhilarating.  Opposing fractions would form a long line facing each other, stayed out of each other’s attack range (much like the movies of the ancient wars), waiting for the number to gather.  Reinforcement flew in as news traveled fast.  Lots of taunting and luring to start the battle.  At a critical moment, someone would rally a group and march into the enemy line.  And then, the battle began involving easily more than 50 players.

As the attack progressed, it often broke into smaller battles amongst small groups (has anyone played the ‘egg and flour’ war in say birthday parties?).  I once thought that I was safe hiding behind a tree resting.  In the next moment, I saw 5 or 10 of them in front of me out of nowhere.  Uh oh.

The side effect of these unintended episodes was that not only did players take down other players, but they also took down the guards, the pheasants inside the town, basically halted all kinds of questing for those who wished to stay out of conflict.  So, the creator of the game has decided to take the battle out and into designated areas.  I miss those large scale town raiding.  Or as a matter of fact, being raided was just as fun.

General Drakkisath (In The Good Old UBRS)

The first time tackling the dungeon in a group of 15 online players was, as I remember, nerve-wrecking.  Raid leader’s commands were streaming through the chat window in the form of text.  Everyone followed order, for every maneuver inside the dungeon.  Flawless execution like an orchestra that all musicians play a different instrument, but the same song.  The quality of leadership and the bravery of the group was inspiring.  Although in much later, I too led groups to tackle different dungeons, although as time goes by there are newer and more complicated dungeons, I still hold dear to my first memory of the dungeon UBRS.

No, we didn’t kite General Drakkisath during my first encounter.  That strategy was derived much later, I think.

It Is Level 1 To 60, Or 70 Once Again (For The Horde!)

By the time Cynthia joined me, it was 2007.  First expansion of the game was out and she was attracted to the beauty of the new race blood elf, curious about what got me so into the game (I remember we had a bet or something).  To someone who has 8 level 60 characters back then, it is all the way from the beginning again.

Interestingly, Cynthia is my antidote to game addiction.  Because of character progression, there is little point in getting ahead of each other.  We complete quests together, visit dungeons together, and play the game together till today.  If she doesn’t play, I don’t play.  Simple as that.

Self-Actualization (For Now Before Expansion #3 Arrives)

2009 is an interesting year.  The game has evolved in a way that it is now much easier to attain “self-actualization”, even for the casual players.  Cynthia and I are now able to work towards improving our characters beyond the level cap tackling dungeons in heroic mode side-by-side with the serious players (or raiders).  We are exalted in major factions riding dragons (see picture above) and collecting exotic pets, collecting in-game titles.  We have a good pile of gold coins stashed up somewhere.  In short, all that we have ever wanted – given the real life constraints we have – we have.  These days, we rarely play, maybe a couple of times a week.

And when expansion #3 arrives, it will be all the way from level 1 once again …

Oh yes, happy birthday WoW.

External Link: World of Warcraft Anniversary Site

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For the Geeks Photography

SanDisk ExpressCard Reader for CompactFlash Cards – Speed Tested Here, And It Is Fast

SanDisk ExpressCard Reader for CF Cards

“Come to think about it, what you are holding is quite a rare thing.  I have not heard of a ExpressCard reader for CF cards,” said one photography friend of mine.  To recap, I have tested the new SanDisk Extreme Pro here.  I love what the new card can do.  That got some of my photography friends excited as well.  But the top question from the crowd was: Hypothetically speaking, if we had the 64GB SanDisk Extreme Pro card, how long would it take to download the photos?  On a USB 2.0 connection like mine, the answer is 3 hours.

When I am on my overseas holiday, I always back up my photos daily onto my old laptop (and I make another backup on another external hard disk).  Transferring photos via the USB 2.0 seems like a pain, at least to me.  Even as I delete off unwanted photos during the shooting session, I may still end up with 4GB worth of materials.  That is 12 minutes of photo download, from the memory card to my laptop, using my laptop’s precious battery power.  But that is only for a holiday trip.  I can imagine for the professional event or sport photographers, they would have shot a lot more photos a day, required to transfer a lot more photos a day into the computer for processing.  Any time saving for these professionals could mean a lot.  In fact, I once covered a media event.  And I ended up with tons of photos that evening.

So, just how fast is the SanDisk ExpressCard Reader?  To cut a long story short, by my testing, this reader reduces the download time by 70%.

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One day SanDisk called me and asked if I am interested to test out the new ExpressCard Reader for CF cards.  I said yes in a heartbeat, excited about the opportunity to touch and feel this loaned unit.  When the excitement subsided, there was one minor logistic challenge – I don’t have a laptop that has an ExpressCard slot!

Panic, and I began making contacts with my friends and asked if I could borrow their laptops for a timed experiment.  Interestingly, while not all laptops in this world has an ExpressCard slot, quite a few do – both Windows OS and Mac OS.  In fact more than I have anticipated.  So, a big thank you to my friends who have responded and especially those who are so keen to loan me their laptops for testing on something they have no idea what it is all about.  You guys rock!

Although my sister’s [pretty high end] Fujitsu laptop is about 2 years old, it does have an ExpressCard slot.  In fact, Fujitsu began shipping that technology since mid 2005.  I am not technologically inclined and hence, it took me a while to correctly install the necessary software (or driver) and got the test going (and to correctly find the slot!).  Remember, only install the driver from the CD provided once you attach your card reader into your laptop preferably with a CF card inserted. Your Windows OS may tell you that your card reader is ready to be used.  But in fact, the speed can be so slow that it is not usable (6 times slower than USB 2.0 in my case when I incorrectly installed the driver).

For my simple test, I use 40 real life photos in 14-bit RAW format.  That sums up to about 500MB worth of photos.  I preformed the test on both the new SanDisk Extreme Pro (90MB/s) as well as my old SanDisk Extreme IV (45MB/s).  The result is the same.  Upload of photos (i.e. write speed) via the card reader took 20 seconds.  Download of photos (i.e. read speed) took 26 seconds.  For comparison, download via USB 2.0 took 86 seconds.  To extrapolate, a 16GB worth of photos would take less than a quarter of an hour to download using this card reader.  That may seem long, but imagine the alternative option I am currently having (and how precious laptop battery power is).  If download time can be cut by 70%, that is awesome.

So who needs this?

Professional photographers or enthusiasts who have a laptop that supports ExpressCard, consider the time saving (and power saving for the laptop on battery), it is certainly a worthwhile investment.

Note: SanDisk proposes that I should use either a MacBook Pro with ExpressCard slot or Sony VAIO VGNCR220E for testing.  Unfortunately, I am unable to secure any of these two types of laptop at the time of testing.

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Drama Movie Reviews

The Informant! – Still Can’t Pinpoint What Is Missing

A new move by Matt Damon

“So, do you like this movie?” asked I as the credits rolled.  Cynthia nodded, “It is entertaining.  Don’t you like this move [that I pick]?”

“…”

Matt Damon’s acting is convincing, no doubt.  I did a little research on this movie that is based on a non-fiction written by journalist Kurt Eichenwald, which in turn based on true events that happened around the lysine price-fixing conspiracy.  Matt Damon plays the whistle-blower Mark Whitacre.  Fortune 500 company Archer Daniels Midland (ADM) and FBI were also involved in this conspiracy.  It is white collar crime, and the director Steven Soderbergh has certainly injected a similar level of dark comedy in “The Informant!” – much like my favorite “Traffic” and the “Ocean” trilogy.

According to my little research after I returned home, bipolar disorder – a mood disorder portrayed by Matt Damon’s character – does not seem to mean that the patient turns into an uncontrollable liar, a syndrome seems to imply by the film.  The book appears to focus on the center character Mark Whitacre ‘s meltdown and bizarre behavior resulting from the pressures of working undercover for the FBI.  And subsequently suffered from depression and have attempted suicide.  That would have made a lot of sense.  A deeper linkage to the film “The Firm” as mentioned in the book would also be nice.  The end of the book examines the unfairly long nine years sentence Mark Whitacre received – disagreed by the author of the book as well as several FBI agents.  That too would have been a better resolution than rounding up the film with yet another lie.

That, of course, is just my opinion.  Something doesn’t gel, and I still can’t pinpoint what it is.  Matt Damon, though.  I have to say he is one great actor.

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Diary

Composition of Bleeding Heart And The Thread Of Fate

I wonder if painters explain their works under normal circumstances, or let the viewers, big time critics to figure out what the artworks really mean, the inspiration that was behind the drawings.  Like Michelangelo’s “The Creation of Adam”.  Did he explain to the then media that the blob behind the painting of God is indeed a brain?  Or someone simply figured it out?  It would be so flattering if someone in the future ‘figures out’ my works.  For now, back to reality, some of you may wonder how I compose the drawing “Bleeding Heart and the Thread of Fate”.  If you have not seen the drawing, I hope you have a look at it before reading further.

Bleeding heart, and the thread of fate

Center to this drawing – both theme-wise and location-wise – is what you see above: a bleeding heart and a 8-shaped thread cut opened in two places.  I deliberately leave the heart hollow, and broken.  Like I wrote in the previous entry, the Chinese title is 《心中滴血紅線斷》.  That is a big drop of dripping blood you are seeing.  The thread, again, is the ‘red thread’.  In Chinese, it is the thread that binds the married couple, a thread of fate that brings the couples together in the first place.

The main subject of this drawing is a girl, with a broken heart (please refer to original drawing).  You can see a teardrop from her eye, her shoulders, and her upper body.  There are two hands by her side (check out the palm lines).  Some form of support, some form of care from her friends and family.  There are two more hands side by side with opened palms right underneath the bleeding heart.  Again, it is a form of support.  What an abstract pair of hands you may ask.  If you look closer, from the shoulders of the girl, tracing along her sides with patterns marked by the fingers, all the way to the finger patterns and the gap between the two palms at the bottom – this forms a butterfly.  I wish to convey a sense of femininity to this drawing.  Also to bring forth the concept of something so beautiful, yet temporal, time bound (butterflies don’t live long).

Previously, I mentioned that there are four faces revealed by rotation.  To help you to visualize, I have extracted the bits for each face.

Face 1 and 2

Face #1 should be obvious.  That is our main subject.  Face #2 requires a bit of imagination.  Can you see the two lines of tear from the girl’s eye?

Face 3 and 4

Face #3 and #4 look like distorted figures, which I have intended to in order to signify the pain of a broken heart.  There is a face, shoulders, one eye (while another one hidden in the shadow), a nose, and an opened mouth with teeth.

OK.  That is all I have.  I hope you find this write-up interesting.  Thanks for reading!

Related Entry: The Original Drawing

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Diary

Working Title: Bleeding Heart And The Thread of Fate

My new doodle inspired by broken hearts

This, could be quite a significant piece of drawing.  One that pivots my art direction.  It is the first time I explore different perspectives by rotation.  You should be able to see four faces (by rotation), and a subject with at least four different objects.  Why ‘at least’?  This kind of abstract art, I won’t be surprised if you see more than what I intended this drawing to be.

Believe it or not, the first title that came up to my mind while I was conceptualizing this drawing was a Chinese title I created called 《心中滴血紅線斷》.  It is a combination of two concepts: the dripping blood inside a heart and the cutting of a red thread.  The former is a graphical way to describe heartache.  The latter, in Chinese, ‘red thread’ signifies the thread of fate that ties the couples into marriage.  A broken one with a bleeding heart, I am sure you can figure out the rest.

From time to time, I have friends from either sexes – though more females than males – who  confide in me their not-too-successful love stories.  Loving someone, could be a painful process.  Undeniably so.  But I reckon it is better to feel what is love than not knowing what love is at all.  Another common theme I have learned (and shared) is that relationship goes deeper than finding out if couples are right for each other.  At times, when timing is not right, though a couple is compatible in all fronts, it is just not meant to be.  It is hard to swallow, it is even harder to move on.  Interestingly, all whom didn’t quite believe me when I said, “the right one could be just round the corner, and hence don’t give up!”  The next moment, he or she found someone, some got married, and seldom contact me no more.  I am happy for them of course.  It is good to play a small role in someone’s life journey, however brief it is.

So tell me, how do you interpret this drawing?  I may write about its composition in the next post.

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Diary

Working Title: Make-Up

My drawing called "Make-Up"

The working title of this drawing of mine is “Make-Up”, inspired by what you will see in just a bit.  This drawing does not have the complexity in terms of meaning like that big turtle drawing.  So, please don’t think too hard on this one.  If you have the bandwidth, try to decipher that puzzle of mine instead.  No one has figured the answer yet!  Shocking.  I may give out more hints in like … a month down the road.

In this drawing, you see a woman staring into an eye – can you see the eyebrow above the eye? – and there are three make-up brushes used for the girl in the mirror (the bigger face).  So I suppose when a girl looks into a mirror, the reflection on her eyes is the girl herself?  Anyway, the three brushes are eye shadow brush, blending brush, and powder brush.  This may sound Greek to you if you are a guy.  If you are a lady, these are your daily, essential tools, I suppose.

Out of nowhere, Cynthia has this renaissance ignited interest in make-up.  Partially my fault in pointing her to the direction of YouTube.  These days, she is glued to not only TV, but only YouTube.  Oh my.  I have a daily passive dose of make-up jargon and techniques by hearing the video.  The positive side of this is I too get to stare at those very pretty girls behind the video.  I mean, these are really good looking people showing their fans on how to apply make-up and more.  Gulp!

At times I look into the statistics of these popular YouTube contributors.  Each video can easily be viewed in the region of a million times, commented and rated in excess of ten thousands.  Woah!  A scene quite rarely seen in the blogging world (at least the world I know of).  Making videos seem to enjoy the highest number of comments per minute of attention.  And if you want the highest number of comments per characters you type, I would say Facebook or Twitter.  Humbling speaking.  Some comments can even be longer than the status update or tweet itself.  Now, why continue to blog?  Hmmm.

Back to this drawing of mine, I hope you enjoy staring at it.  I often stick my most recent drawing onto the wall for temporary display.  This morning Cynthia got a shock when she woke up to this drawing.  So did I.  Pretty scary piece of drawing the more I look at it.  Oh well, I hope I am improving and heading somewhere.

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Documentary Movie Reviews

Michael Moore Did It Again With Capitalism: A Love Story

A new film by Michael Moore

Whenever I met this friend of mine – whose identity I wish to protect here – inevitably we (or rather he) would talk about making money from the stock market, about his portfolio, which I estimate to be close to a million dollar by now.  Or over half a million.  Either way, it is way more than what I could imagine.  Inevitably, I find myself asking the same question – like a student who just doesn’t get it – “what have you contributed specifically in order to be rewarded with so much money?”  My understanding in economy is basic.  I can see that if you spend time making bread, if there are customers buying your bread, you get paid for what you have worked for.  And the contribution of a bread maker to the society is, bread.  Following that thought, what exactly have the stock traders and investors contributed to our society to be potentially rewarded with that much money?

My friend would shrug and say, “We take part in becoming part of the ‘market sentiment’, the kind of momentum that collectively moves market.”  And I would ask, “But why do we have to create such sentiment?”  He would continue, “Well, mass public plays only a small part.  The corporations take up majority of the market share.  We are just hoping to make a fraction of what the riches are making.”

In Michael Moore’s new film “Capitalism: A Love Story”, he exposed a confidential report Citibank has made for their top clients.  The report declared the ‘United States a “plutonomy” (plutocracy), with the top one percent of the population controlling more financial wealth than the bottom 95 percent’.  It also reported that the threat to this is the one-person-one-vote policy.  In short, the way I see it, if the people gang up against the super-riches, the system will topple.  But why wouldn’t the people do that?  Why do people accept their living condition as it is today?  It is because in America, there is this American dream.  That one day, people may make it to the top 1%.  Wouldn’t toppling the system ruin this wonderful American dream that is fueled by capitalism?  I think this is the main theme of the film.

Like his other films, Michael Moore uses simple terms orchestrated by people’s emotion to expose certain facts.  I have my reservation if what he says is true in entirety.  Having said that, he does bring out some good discussion points on the regulators and the government and the financial institutions, capitalism and its not too glamorous reality.  One may find it puzzling why Michael Moore brings religion into the equation.  In my understanding, American is still very much a country that emphasises on Christian values.  To that end, it seems natural to hear what the Church has to say about capitalism.

I am not from America.  Hence, the impact to me is minimal.  It is a good documentary on one of the leading countries of the world.  I can imagine that Americans may feel the emotional impact watching “Capitalism: A Love Story”.  Perhaps disgusted by the system and the people involved.  Personally, I do not have the sudden revelation of “American is not that great after all”, like some of the other viewers.  I understand that there is no perfect country in this world.

And back to the stock investment discussion with my well-do-do friend.  I always end our conversation with, “I don’t think the stock market is for me.”

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Book Reviews Coincidence Fiction

張子璇《早苗》- “Zoumiu”, Again, 9 Short Stories

Zoumiu

This has to be a coincidence.  I randomly picked four Chinese novels to read from the library.  The previous book is a collection of nine short stories.  This books is also a collection of nine short stories.  Relationship, especially in the form of divorce, is one of the themes of the previous book.  Same for this book.  The previous book writes in a certain style of surrealism blurring reality with illusion.  This book, same.  And when one of the stories from 《早苗》”Zoumiu” – note that I translate based on the pronunciation because the title is derived from a female name – has a scene of the main character pondering with a glass of cold beer, I flipped.  It was as though I was reading 《嘉年華會》(Carnival”).  The beer, the divorce, the surrealism, the same number of stories – either it is a common trend in today’s Chinese literature bear in mind that “Zoumiu” is written by a Taiwanese writer while “Carnival” by a Hong Kong writer, the coincidence is simply, surreal.

Before I comment on the “Zoumiu”, I would like to write a bit on what I observe on the languages of these two geographic locations (can’t really say countries, can I?).  Hong Kong and Taiwan are most likely the only two places in this entire world that the people still write in Traditional Chinese.  I sincerely wish with all my heart that Traditional Chinese will not vanish, swallowed by the Simplified Chinese so commonly promoted by China.  For those who wonder what the difference between the two is, it is as though “Simplified English” becomes official and words such as ‘wot’, ‘happend’, ‘wif’, ‘btw’, ‘u’, ‘tt’, ‘impresn’ become the endorsed language.  Imagine English classics printed with those simplified forms.  The analogy may be crude and not entirely correct.  But the essence is there.  And that is how I feel when I read Simplified Chinese.

While I was reading “Zoumiu”, I realize that the choice of words between these two places – Hong Kong and Taiwan – can be different.  An analogy could be the subtle difference when you read British novels and American novels.  Both are written in English.  But there are differences between the two.  I, for one, read Hong Kong novels at a much faster pace.

At times, I am not sure which culture is more dramatic in nature – Taiwan or Hong Kong?  “Zoumiu” is prefaced by two I supposed reputable writer and editor in Taiwan.  Full of over-the-top promises that set my expectation sky high on “Zoumiu”, before I have even started reading the book.  The author 張子璇 has won the 1st prize of the Taiwan’s “Save the Literature” award.  “Zoumiu” is a story of love, and death.  Death is the center theme.  The nine stories are: 《早苗》《那個中午》《夜裡》《活著的記憶》《背影》《陌生人》《等待》《嫉妒的漂浮》《緩慢的自由》.  Again, for ease of reference, I would translate the titles to “Zoumiu”, “That Afternoon”, “In the Night”, “Memory of the Living”, “View of the Back”, “Stranger”, “To Wait”, “Jealousy Afloat”, “The Slowness of Freedom”.

“Memory of the Living” has perhaps the most impact on me.  In the story, the main character’s mother often stares outside the window, every passing moment of the day, holding a little black box.  One day, the main character returns home and discovers his mother has committed suicide.  He then opens the box and understands what his mother meant by: “I will tell it to you one day, until you mother is too tired, cannot hold it any longer, and I will pass it to you”.  My heart sunk when I too discovered what it is.

Another favorite story of mine is “Stranger”.  One day, a girl discovers a corpse like stranger appears in her home.  And through interacting with this stranger, conversing on the topic of her first divorce and second marriage, the stranger does not seem that foreign any more.  An extract of the story below (the author puts an extract upfront at the beginning of each story, interestingly).

要不是偶然遇見了陌生男子,今天也不過是如此平常的一天,
回頭看看剛才走過的路,著實讓她安心不少。
那個蒼白得像個死屍的男人,現在想起來也不覺得害怕了。

The rest of the stories, like these two, explore on the decisions people make, on love, at times observed from a distance, almost like reading from a spirit’s view, or indeed from a spirit’s view.  Some stories are inconclusive leaving me to ponder on what is real and what is not.  One story, “Jealousy Afloat”, the main character is obsessed with the memory and illusion of his lost love decades ago, keeps revisiting old places until he sees her, together with the younger him.  The writing style of that story could seem extreme, but I tend to think that the author is gifted in bringing human interactions alive.

Additional Info: Singapore library tag is ZGZL, Wisdom Books official site, and ISBN 978-957-450-508-1.

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Book Reviews Fiction

王璞《嘉年華會》- “Carnival”, 9 Short Stories

Carnival

Almost in a similar period when I appear to have given up eating meat all of a sudden, I have this sudden urge to rediscover my Chinese root.  Reality is, nothing is ‘all of a sudden’.  I have been wanting to give up eating meat for ages.  And I have been wanting to brush up on my Chinese for ages.  Reading Chinese novels is merely a first step of my long term ambition to regain my innate linguistic ability to its fullest and beyond.  I want to be able to read, understand, and pronounce 100% of the words found in a modern novel, able to write in Chinese, and able to create literature in Chinese.  After all, I believe all my friends who remain in Hong Kong are able to do all these.  I am merely playing catchup.

The joy of reading Chinese books is indescribable.  Language-wise, I am able to understand almost all the words and expressions (versus English novels).  But mere understanding is not my primary aim.  I want to be able to pronounce them as well (unlike the Western language, you can’t really pronounce a Chinese word if you don’t know the word).  And that is when modern technology helps a great deal.  I have found a site that helps me to find out how to pronounce a certain Chinese word in Cantonese.  With my mobile phone that allows me to enter traditional Chinese in handwriting mode, I can look for a word wherever and whenever I need to.

Beyond words, I believe some of you who read both English and Chinese literature would agree with me that the ‘feel’ of the two is very different.  It is the vividness of drama and sound, the emotional complexity, the culture and values, and much more that makes reading Chinese such a joyful experience.  One could take a piece of Chinese literature, translate into English, and to me, the essence is simply lost.  How could one translate the literal meaning of “scrap my eyes and see”, “rub in oil and add vinegar”, or “white as the cleanliness of jade and the clarity of ice”?  Sounds so strange when translated literally but sounds so good when read in the original language.

Back to 《嘉年華會》- one of the four Chinese books I have borrowed from the library recently, the author 王璞 is born in Hong Kong, has lived in China, and since 1989, stationed in Hong Kong.  I have deliberately chosen a Hong Kong writer because I reckon I can relate better – both in terms of the writing style as well as the locations and culture. 《嘉年華會》 is a collection of short stories – 《希臘拖鞋》《嘉年華會》《收藏家》《跳房子》《悼念綠牆袍》《河邊少婦》《我的高麗同學》《啤酒》《流氓是怎樣煉成的》.  For the ease of reference, I would translate these titles to: “Greek Sandals”, “Carnival”, “Collector”, “Hopscotch”, “Mourning of the Green Chinese Dress”, “Young Woman by the River”, “My Korean Schoolmates”, “Beer”, and “Thugs are Made of This”.

Some stories such as “Carnival” and “Thugs are Made of This” are rather short, like a few pages.  “Beer” is perhaps the lengthiest of all for it takes up half a book.  If there is a common theme amongst these stories, that would be an attempt to mix the reality with illusion.  Another theme would be the loss of something.  The author would try to convince the reader something exists only to later on blur it into illusion.  Or a relationship that is well and good and then out of nowhere, a huge quarrel breaks out (that reads like watching a typical local TV drama) and the couple parts way.

In most of the stories, divorce seems to be a main topic.  I wonder why.  Relationships do not seem to work out.  In fact, nothing works out in all the short stories.  The story “Beer” is perhaps one of my favorite.  It has the depth and complexity that I enjoy reading.  The story’s main character is someone who has experienced four divorces and a childhood crush on a train that still lives vividly in her.  To chain the plots is her passion to drinking beer.  To add onto the plot is the main character’s mission to locate her missing father.  All these plots are told not in a sequential manner, but rather randomly picked as the narrator recollects her life story.  The most amazing thing is how the main character – a writer – creates and distorts the story of her childhood crush, in the form of short essays.  That creates a story within a story – an exploration of what happens when love in reality meets with love as an illusion.

I am glad that the book ends with “Thugs are Made of This”.  In just 16 pages, the author tells a story of an apartment owner from being Mr. Nice to someone rude and nasty after a series of unfortunate events.  Such quickness in plot development, what a way to end the book.  I will certainly look for more books written by 王璞.  And one quote from the book to end this entry.

即使是像我一個逆來順受的女人,也有一顆跳動的心。

Additional Info: Singapore library tag is WGPU, Cosmos Books official site, and ISBN 978-988-211-977-2

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Fragments Of My Dreams Episode 14 – Robot Coma

Robot's head

This is my first field trip and our mission is clear: To secure the underground area next to the university.  There has been disturbance inside the dungeon of tunnels made of steel, as reported.  The robots do not normally venture so close into our civilization.  We wonder what prompts the encroachment.  Low in resource within the robot colonies?  The evolution of robots that finally breach the take no interest in human activity vow as programmed, sealed, and agreed upon after the Third War?  Or robots that have gone rogue?

I have to admit that I am born of a younger generation, owe it to our forefathers for the establishment of peace, a form of peace that is not perfect – as coexisting with your century long enemies is never easy – but necessary.  Towards the end of the Third War, both sides acknowledged that we human beings cannot outpace the evolution of robots aided by technology rapidly discovered, experimented, and advanced minutes by minutes, seconds by seconds; and robots cannot precede the wisdom of mankind granted by the gods of heaven.  Our bones may be fragile, our flesh may be mortal, but there is no survival like a human survival.

Robot's torso

At least that is how we are taught in school; my textbook understanding on the robots, on the history before I was born.  I have not seen a robot in my life, least terminating one.  The word ‘kill’ has been banned and eliminated from our dictionary as part of the agreement of the Third War Treaty.  As the robots have acutely observed, the root of our evilness lies in the word “kill”.  Kill: Such a word full of hatred, of superiority, and of no responsibility, no respect.  Terminate, on the other hand, has a clinical approach to address a certain dire situation, through sound logic and rationalization.

As I have said, this is my first field trip, in a squad of soldiers who seem to know what they are doing.  “You!” says the squad leader pointing at my direction.  “Sir?” I straighten my back in response.  “Stay close and shoot at the damn robots, not us.  Got it?  We’re going to kill all those damn motherfookers!” shouts the leader in his hoarse commanding voice.

Kill?!  Guess I have to toss the textbooks away for now, side-by-side with this troop of dozen.

Robot's right arm

“Here.  Take these,” one soldier beside me hands me some ammunition.  “These are rockets.  Launch them from a distance.  You don’t wanna see them explode in front of our faces.  Got that, kiddo?” he continues.  “Yes Sir!” I replies as I strapped the little red rockets onto my belt, with my trembling hands.  “And these are regular bullets.  For close range shooting.  You have learned how to fire at the training center, haven’t you?”  I nod, weakly.  He puts his strong hand onto my left shoulder and says, “Look kiddo, this is real war.  I don’t know your background.  But since you are here, you must have done damn good in your training.  Don’t let us down, OK?”

Such a fatherly voice, I reply with renewed conviction, “Sir!  Yes Sir!”

“Something is moving ahead Sir!” one squad member shouts.  The squad leader turns to me and says, “You kiddo.  Do the announcement now!”

In my state of nervousness, I have gone stiffed, my mind has gone blank.  The soldier next to me shouts, “Do it now kiddo!  We can’t attack those motherfookers before we make the announcement!”

I slap into action, grab the microphone, clear my throat and say, “Attention.  This is a human designated area.  You are in violation of the Third War Treaty that says no robots are allowed to encroach into human designated areas, physically or in any capacity that may interact or harm the human species …”

“They are fast approach, Sir!” one soldier screams.  “Get ready to fire!” shouts the squad leader.

And my mechanical voice continues, echoes in these long steel tunnels, “We hereby inform you to immediately leave this area.  Failing to do so may grant us, the humans, the right to terminate you …”

I hear gunfire.  So loud that I have to cover my ears.  I see two dead robots right in front of us as I continue, “We come in peace and wish you robots no harm.”

How ironic.

“These robots come in pairs, kiddo.  If you kill one, you have to kill the other,” said one soldier.  “What if we don’t?” ask I.  “Well, these robots are programmed to live and die in pairs.  Think kamikaze, kiddo.  Not pretty,” he shakes his head engaged in what appears as a deep thought.  I make a mental note to inquire the story after our mission.

“There are a lot more coming!” says the same soldier who warned us the incoming of robots.  “Shoot ’em all!” shouts the squad leader, “And you kiddo!”  He turns to me, “Make yourself useful and use that damn gun of yours, would you?”

Robot's left arm

Indeed, a lot more targets are coming our way.  Relentless, waves and waves of robots come upon us.  The sound of the gunfire is deafening; the sparkle of the explosion hurts my eyes.  One target is marked for my taking.  From a distance, I launch rocket #1.  Missed.  Rocket #2.  Missed!  Such tremendous speed these robots have!  As  my target gets closer to me, I attempt to launch rocket #3.  My gun screams in a mechanical voice, “Warning!  Warning!  Incoming target too close!”  I fire nonetheless.  Big explosion, the ground shakes.  The rocket has punched a big hole onto the steel tunnel just meters away from us.  The squad leader shouts, “Dammit kiddo!  Wanna get us all killed?!”

My target slows down, by the up close explosion of the rocket.  I switch to pistol, attempt to shoot the robot.  Futile.  For I am merely putting dents onto his thick armor.  There is something peculiar about this robot.  In my state of desperation, thinking of not wanting to get my squad killed, I do the unthinkable: I charge towards the robot!

My squad seems shocked.  The robot seems shocked.  Every one stops what they are doing and watch what could have been the most lunatic scene of the century as recorded.

Adrenalized, with heighten alert.  As I am approaching an arm’s length away from my target, I toss my pistol away, and the puzzlement has deepened.  “What are you thinking?!” the robot must have pondered.  As it too stays still, a step or two away from the huge hole that my rocket #3 has created not so long ago.

Robot's stomach

With all my remaining strength, I run up to the robot – what enormous figure! – and give it a big push, into the hole.  The hole is no ordinary hole.  It is a lift shaft.  I pull the level  nearby to call a lift to come down.  Almost like a slow motion, the lift crushes onto the fallen robot and renders it inactive.  All of a sudden, it is silence.  The heavy breathing of the human squad and the electrostatic sparkles of the fallen robot fills the silence bestows upon the aftermath of the last wave of attack.

“Just what the ‘uck are you thinking, kiddo?” our squad leader mutters the words slowly while staring at the fallen robot.  My face has gone red and I reply, “Erm, Sir.  I did what I have to do.  I have disengaged the robot.”

“Ah, disengaged,” he looks up at the ceiling disengaged from the current scene and continues, “So this robot is neither alive nor dead.  What the ‘uck are we supposed to do with a robot in coma?”

“Sir,” one soldier steps up and offers an answer, “We are not allowed to harm or interact or harvest any such robot.  In fact, we must retreat from this perimeter immediately and notify the Federation.”

“Good.  And how are we supposed to secure this perimeter, as part of our mission?”

“The Law says, no mission supersede this situation of ours as it is a grave threat to humanity, unless humanity is in threat,” the soldier continues.  Another soldier steps up, clenching his fists in anger and says, “Sir.  I say we blow this motherfooker apart and continue with our mission.”  Some of the soldiers join force, fists in the air, and yell, “Let’s blow this motherfooker apart!”

“NO!” the squad leader quiet the crowd with his calm voice.  “There are certain values in life we must not compromise.  This robot in coma is not to be harmed.  Mission abort!”

“But what would happen to this robot in coma?” I ask, in all ignorance.  The squad leader shrugs and says, “Maybe its another half will claim it for mutual voluntary termination.  Maybe the robots will use it to claim ownership to this underground structure.  How the ‘uck would I know?  I don’t study robots for a living.  I kill ’em to pay my bills, kiddo.”

The squad leader’s long sigh meets with a faint drumming sound from a distance.  The noise amplifies as we standstill, trying to figure out what is next.  “Sir!  Take a look at the radar,” shouts one soldier in disbelief.  “They are in great number, a scale I have never seen before!”

“Move, move!  Retreat!  Now!  You and you, hold the line with me.  The rest of you.  Run like hell!” commands the squad leader.

Robot's feet

We run like mad, fueled by the great number of robots chasing after us.  Have I started the Fourth War?  I dare not even think about it.  As I emerge from the underground compound, greeted by dusk, the siren has been sounded.  For how long?  I do not know.  I see shadow of some students from the university dashing in the dark.  I look back at the exit, half expecting to see robots making an entry into our human dwelling, a formal invasion.  Instead, I see animals and birds, coming out from the same exit we emerged.  And they too are engulfed by the dusk, disappeared into the dark.

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Author’s Note: I am always thrilled when it comes to writing the “Fragments of my Dreams” series.  I love being able to let my imagination runs wild, guided only by the [real] dreams I have.  Sunday morning (Nov 8, 2009), I woke up early, vividly remembered I had a dream.  But the content was vague.  I fell back to sleep and revisited my dreamland again, willing the dream to be repeated.  And incredible as it sounds, the dream did repeat again, like a movie.  In fact, it ended inside a movie theater.  I picked the most coherent part of my dream to be the inspiration of this episode.

Robot transformed, the big picture