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The Memoirs Of A Survivor By Doris Lessing – An Amazing Journey Beyond Survival, Beyond Time And Space

A book by Doris Lessing published in the 70s
I deeply respect Doris Lessing’s ability to breath life into characters, and in “The Memoirs of a Survivor (1974)”, she breathes life into rooms and walls and more.  Doris Lessing is one of the most intelligent writers, certainly one of my favorite.  I wish I could have a glimpse of how she creates her works.  Such coherence and linkages as though the beginning is planned as the ending is written, and vice versa.

For example, the ‘it’.  Only when I re-read parts of the book did I noticed that on page 9, she wrote:

I shall begin this account at a time before we were talking about ‘it’.  We were still in the stage of generalised unease.  Things weren’t too good, they were even pretty bad … But ‘it’, in the sense of something felt as an immediate threat which could not be averted too.

I did not take much notice until I read towards the end of the book, on page 130, she wrote:

Very well then, but what was ‘it’?  I am sure that ever since there were men on earth ‘it’ has been talked of precisely in this way in times of crisis, since it is in crisis ‘it’ becomes visible, and our conceit sinks before its forces.  For ‘it’ is a force, a power, talking in the form of earthquake, a visiting comet whose balefulness hangs closer night by night distorting all thought by fear – ‘it’ can be, has been, pestilence, a war, the alteration of climate, a tyranny that twists men’s minds, the savagery of a religion.

‘It’, in short, is the word for helpless ignorance, or of helpless awareness.  It is a word for man’s inadequacy?

I would have missed that linkage.  Also, only when I re-read from the beginning, I can attempt to understand the concept, her concept of ‘they’ and ‘them’.  Attempt, as this book is anything but an easy read.  On the surface, it is a simple story being told from the eyes of a woman – the narrator.  It is a time of near-future when an unspecified disaster causes our society to plunge into the age of barbarism, when people are constantly on a move based on scarce news to a better and more livable place, when no one possesses anything but to constantly make do with what they come across and pass them on, when there is no law and order, and when survival matters.

One day, a small girl Emily is given to this woman’s care.  And comes with this girl is an ugly dog with the look of a cat.  For that part of the story, it reminds me of her book “The Story Of General Dann And Mara’s Daughter, Griot And The Snow Dog”.  A young girl and her animal companion.  The story spans the several years of the little girl’s growing up, the crowds gather at the ‘pavement’ in front of the house they occupied, the emergence of children from the sewage system not brought up by humans, but rather behave like monsters.  Monsters.  Such ugliness that strongly reminisces of the main character of “Ben In The World”.  How Emily has fallen in love with the young leader Gerald, helping him to build communities, authority, and how Gerald – when everyone has given up on those monstrous children who kill and destroy all that they see – never gives up on these children.  A close reference to W. H. Auden’s ‘We must love one another or die’ (a poem called “September 1, 1939”).  Someone has made a note “Lord of the Flies” in the library book that I borrowed.  It is a classic written by William Golding in 1954.  I think there is a certain level of validity on that association.

Layer on top of this straightforward storyline is how the narrator – the woman – sees the surrounding walls transform into images and messages that transcend space and time.  It is when the woman sees the past of Emily – her father, her mother, her little brother, and the babysitter.  Each past from each room, each wall, comes with different metaphor that explains the certain current state of Emily as the narrator observes.  Emily initially is described as ‘invincibly obedience’.  As the narrator observes, there are more and more flaws, then explained by the visions from the walls.  More and more respectable capabilities are observed, as the story unfolds.  That is what I meant by breathing life into a character that Doris Lessing has done it so well.  The narrator never gets too close to Emily, always observes from a distance.

It is hard to describe how Doris Lessing manages to make the ‘walls’ sound so convincing.  She describes the wall as ‘personal’.  In my limited understanding – perhaps I need to read the book again several more times – in that world, nothing is personal as no one truly owns anything.  The only thing ‘personal’ is our memory and our vision, hence represented by the ‘personal’ wall.  And as dramatic as her stories that I have read, just when I was deeply depressed by the gloominess towards the end of the story, a wall – that the narrator promises to show no more – ‘appears’ in a different capacity, in hope and beauty.  That ending, lifts my soul high.

“The Memoirs of a Survivor” lightly explores the concepts of community, feminism, survival, administration, government, and authority – or simply put, humanity.  The most memorable metaphor is how our next generation take what we have used and discarded and create something of their own, something beautiful and useful.  In the story, the narrator’s job is a news gatherer.  Doris Lessing does not tell the readers how important news is in time of uncertainty.  She starves the readers with meagre amount of news that every little plot she discloses I hold dear to, digest and re-digest again.  But still, what causes the disaster?  Are there really big blue fish in the sea?  Or yellow?  No one knows.

Note: Doris Lessing is the Nobel Prize Laureate in Literature 2007 – “that epicist of the female experience, who with scepticism, fire and visionary power has subjected a divided civilisation to scrutiny”.

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Announcement

Nokia Comes With Music Vouchers For You To Grab! Hurry!

Contest, A Contest!

Latest update 31/10/2009: This contest is now closed.  I thank you for your support and participation.

Dear Readers of My Site,

For months, some of you may have heard again and again how happy I am with Nokia Comes With Music’s unlimited songs download.  If you are residing in Singapore, you stand a very good chance to win yourself a S$200 voucher.

All because I love you!

Nokia has allocated a bunch of vouchers for my readers, you.  All you need to do is hurry, email the answers of the questions below to …

You will stand a very good chance to win the S$200 voucher. You can use it to buy a Nokia Comes With Music device, for yourself, or your lover, or your lover’s mom slash dad slash best friend.  Or you could give it to your best friend!  Are you ready for the questions?  They are:

  1. What is the top International Single on the Nokia Music Store charts in Singapore this week?
  2. List three free tracks currently available on the Nokia Music Store in Singapore.
  3. List three new releases in the Singapore Nokia Music Store this week.

OK.  These are not easy questions.  But because I love you, you may wish to head to the Nokia Music Store to hunt for your answers (best open with Microsoft Internet Explorer).  Play around with the banner, OK?  Oh crap.  I hope I won’t get into trouble by saying too much.

Best of luck!  And spread the words!

Cheers,
Wilfrid

PS. To read more on Nokia Comes With Music, please click here.  The winners will be selected based on Nokia’s discretion.

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Action & Thriller Foreign Movie Reviews

Amalfi (Amarufi) – Japanese Diplomacy Is A Long Process

Yet another Japanese film!

When I was young, I often read Japanese novels of the detective and thriller genre.  In Chinese of course.  There is this Oriental exoticism that is different from the similar stories of the West.  The twists and turns, the ambiance, the backdrops, and the attention to details like an art – all in a pace that is less of a page turner, but rather a consistent grind from start to end.  In a strange way, watching the 125 minutes Japanese film “Amalfi” reminds me of just that.

“Amalfi” is a special production to mark Fuji Television’s 50th anniversary, entirely shot in Italy.  The scenery is beautiful.  As Cynthia and I watched the movie, some scenes reminded us of our honeymoon back in 2000.  The plot is full of twists, though somewhat linear.  You could of course sit back and watch the movie as it is.  Or you could – like me – think together with the actor, as he pauses, eyes dashing around the surrounding, and the music stops giving you the opportunity to think.

As for the storyline, I wouldn’t say too much here.  But here is the excerpt.  A single mother has gone for a holiday with her little daughter in Italy and soon, her daughter is kidnapped.  A Japanese diplomat has joined the Japanese Embassy in Rome and is assigned to handle this kidnap case.  Soon, they discover that this entire setup is more than just a kidnap.

I can understand that some may find this movie a bit too long and boring.  Some parts are a bit far fetched, though by and large, the storyline makes sense.  I in especially am delighted by the acting: a single mother who has to appear strong under even the most trying period of her life, a diplomat who has poor communication skill but his eyes say it all.  “Amalfi” is more than a thriller.  I am not a Japanese.  But it is refreshing to see a Japanese film taking on the International arena.  I for one am awed by the breathtaking scenes shot in Rome.  One scene, they are taking a public bus, standing with the crowd, the camera gradually zooms out, through the bus window.  As the bus drives away, there it is, the famous backdrop of Rome.  Such class!

PS. I think the filmmakers are big, big fan of Sarah Brightman.

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For the Geeks

Latest Nokia Application Review – Part 1 of 2

N97 on Nightstand, photographed this morning

For the second time this year, Nokia has passed me some credits to try out applications of my choice at their OVI Store.  This is exciting of course.   Although some I would have bought anyway, it is good to test out others that I would have missed.   The size of the store has grown quite significantly over the last few months, especially in the gaming section.  Many of the real good applications and games come free of charge.   Part 1 of this review focuses on standard applications.  Part 2 will focus on games.  Some of the games are so fun that kept me going night after night.   Stay tuned for that.

On the standard application front, more similar – either competing or complementary – applications start to emerge.  It is interesting to see how some applications are sluggish and unappealing while a similar one with very similar functionality is blazing fast, looking stylish and professional.   Same Nokia Symbian operating system, very different in performance.  And it is also good to see applications continue to push the frontier of what a Nokia phone can do.

I use a N97 to test out some of the noteworthy applications.   If you or your friend owns a Nokia phone or intend to own one, I hope you enjoy reading this part 1 review as much as I writing it.

To continue reading, please click here.  For more articles on this particular phone model, you may also wish to check out the “Experiencing Nokia N97” page.

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Foreign Horror Movie Reviews

Darah – Made In Indonesia

Blood, a lot of blood!

Last Monday was significant in a few ways.  I have decided to be a vegetarian if the circumstances allow.  Something like a social meat eater.  Let’s see how long it will last.  F1 has one more race to go but the driver and constructor’s champion titles have already been concluded.  Cynthia was out-of-town and with my new found freedom, I picked a horror movie to watch.

Strictly speaking, this Indonesian production “Darah” (means blood in Malay) is not a horror film.  More like a thriller with lots and lots of blood.  I can imagine my buddy Mark would faint halfway through the show.  While some friends of mine have rightfully pointed out that there are better horror films than this (and many others would not want to watch this genre), my motivation of watching “Darah” was as follows:

  1. I love watching a horror film in a theater.  I am often entertained by the atmosphere of pockets of audience screaming-out-loud.
  2. I always enjoy watching an Indonesian production that makes it to the International market.  I have studied the language before and it is fun trying to understand the dialogs natively.

First half an hour of “Darah” is devoted to the character development of six friends – guys and girls and I was thinking: where is the blood?  Second half an hour sees the introduction of the scary family of Dara the mother, Adam and Maya – her scary son and her hot daughter in red, and a rather fat butcher who reminds me of a pedophile or a pervert.  OK, I began to see blood.  The last half an hour is filled with accentuated chopping and dismemberment, blood, more blood, and extremely more blood in a chaotic mindless way.  Oh my.  There was only one color I saw: red.

While one may argue that “Darah” lacks the storyline quality, I do find a story built with a hint of folklore better than just another ghost story in a refreshing way.  At the beginning of the movie, there is an argument of a sister blaming her brother over the death of their parents.  Something to do with an unfortunate decision that the brother has made.  That ties in nicely to the ending of the show, in my opinion, when the sister has realized what a terrible mistake she has made.  Also, there was an opening scene of pieces of steak cooked over charcoal fire somewhere in the city of Bandung.  That metaphor has morphed into something pretty gruesome as the story unfolds.  And what I really appreciate is how artistic this film is created.  I am intrigued by the quality of work too.

My only complain is the censorship.  Even with a M18 rating, there are quite a few scenes being cut and without those, some parts of the movie seem a bit flat.  What a pity.  Having said that, there are still a lot of blood and gore scenes that may make your stomach churns.  Those scenes didn’t seem to affect me though.  I had minestrone soup and vegetarian pasta in tomato sauce for dinner.

Horror movies, I want more!

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Diary

Working Title: The Beautiful Alice

The Beautiful Alice

I don’t have balls like our Sunday Times columnist Sumiko Tan who once publicly declared that she will never use Facebook for social networking, on a Sunday paper.  I am on the verge of saying the same to Twitter but ‘never’ is a strong commitment.  In fact, Facebook and I have gone through the stages of ‘huh, what are these people doing poking each other playing stupid games’ to ‘oh my, these games are really fun’, and lately, I use Facebook primary to keep in touch with my real friends online.  New friendships are developed, old friendships are rekindled, and through at times mundane status updates of routine life, at times sudden outbursts of random philosophic observations, there seems to be an invisible bonding between friends who are bought into a two-way communication.  The word two-way is important because it is really scary to know that you have been reading everything about me and what I think while I know nothing of you and what you think.

Alice is one of my sister’s best friend and we met during my sister’s wedding in Hong Kong.  We kept in touch through Facebook and I am finding it such a joy to have a glimpse of her life.  Photos that she shares with her as a teacher and her students in Hong Kong in what appears as a fun environment, amongst other items that she writes.  Her life is surely more colorful than my nine-to-five!

So how does this drawing come into the picture?  One day I noticed that Alice has posted a drawing of her done by a friend of hers in Facebook.  I commented that I also want a drawing of mine and she drew me one.  In gratitude, I drew one for Alice too.  Now those of you who know Alice will likely, most definitely comment that she looks much prettier than that in real life.  Consider how I drew myself in oil back in 2007, you would agree that this drawing of Alice is not-that-bad as my talent is sort-of-limited.

Would you like me to draw a picture of you?  Simply use your wildest imagination, draw a picture of me (it is the effort that counts!), and post it at my Facebook wall or tag it via this post.  I will draw one for you in return.  I enjoy drawing either sexes and if your cats and dogs can draw a picture of me, I am happy to draw a picture of your pets too!

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Diary

My Little Sister Is Pregnant – And Photos From The Botanic Gardens

Being a photographer for my sister and Benny at the Singapore Botanic Gardens

In fact, as you can see in the photo above, she is very pregnant.  So, why am I keeping mum about this significant news for so long?  I don’t know, can’t really pinpoint.  I mean, she is my little sister and the thought that she is carrying a baby seems so out of my wildest imagination.  On the record, I am very happy for her and my good buddy who is responsible in this whole thing.  And too on the record, I have been persistently telling this happy couple  that the little one will call me “big brother”, instead of that forbidden U-word.  They protest of course saying that this is so against the tradition.  I highlight of course that whenever the little one calls me “big brother”, I will give the little one a gift.  One U-word from the little one and there will be no gift.

My parents and my little sister would testify that on the surface, I am not the warmest person on earth.  I am not brought up from a family that often hug each other, or to say I-love-you to one another.  I am not even someone who would get himself involved in his family’s day to day life.  Having confessed that, I do tend to drop everything I do if my family calls-for-action.

But all these have to change, somehow.  I have been trying to get more involved with my sister’s pregnancy.  One day out of the blue, she asked if Cynthia and I could join them for a weekend lunch and help them to take some photos.  I am more than happy to play a part in recording this significant timeline of theirs, especially having gone through some of the old photos that my dad has taken for us.

We love the Botanic Gardens.  My sister, my mother, and I could spend hours photographing everything under the sun, literally speaking.  Just March this year, I took my parents from Hong Kong to visit the Botanic Gardens.  And just March this year, my sister and her hubby got married in Singapore!  How time flies.

It was a very warm day, under the noon sun in the Botanic Gardens.  Benny was the golf umbrella carrier, to shield my little sister from the hot sun.  It has been a long time since I last went for a photo trip.  My back hurt a bit, my hands hurt a bit, but it was worth it.  I love the results of some of the shots.  Before the session, my sister hinted that I often take too long to process the photos.  I hinted that if we are to look for quality over quantity – especially if we are only looking for that one photo for the wall – it should be fast.  She then hinted that she would want to have all the photos in RAW format so that Benny can process then.  Uh-oh.  No way!

Below are some of the highlights.  May God bless this happy couple and the little one with good health.  And if it is not too much of a trouble, bless me with some extra energy to follow their journey like a paparazzi please.

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Movie Reviews Romance

What Not To Love About (500) Days Of Summer?

I like!

8 hours before the show started, on a slow and lovely Friday, our movie-partner-in-crime sent me a text message saying that he could not make it, for he remembered there was a birthday party to attend.  Panic!  On the 11th floor!  Who was going to take over that one single movie ticket?  Cynthia and I do not have that many mutual single friends and I am not sure if my single friends are comfortable hanging out with the two of us.

To cut a long story short, I really wanted to bring one of my friends out, for she is still trying to heal her broken heart.  Friend support is important in this particular circumstance, I always preach that.  And I prayed and prayed – before and during the show – that she would not break down and cry.  I mean, it is a romance film and I had no idea which direction it would go.  Fortunately, she seemed OK.  I guess hope sells.  Obama won the election with hope; the Nobel price committee may have awarded Obama based on hope; Dan Brown’s new novel ends with hope; I have been telling my friend not to give up on hope.  Thank God “(500) Days of Summer” agrees with me.

“(500) Days of Summer” is a story about a boy meets a girl.  The narration goes back and fro on a particular day through the 500 days Tom Hanson (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) and Summer Finn (Zooey Deschanel) have been together.  A story told from the man’s perspective, but with a twist – at least to me – that there is a role reversal between Tom and Summer.  Hence, I reckon this movie is one that both sexes can relate.  If the narration was to follow the timeline, it would have been quite a depressing show to watch.  Because it is not, there is a good mix and happiness and sadness all told in a lighthearted manner.  It is one very entertaining show that makes the audience giggled all the time.  Cynthia thinks that the main actor has a pair of caring eyes that melts hearts.  I think that dude has a very nice smile (those eyes can surely smile!).  And I find the main actress’s acting a joy to watch, especially those moments that are without words.

This film does not seem to watch like a typical Hollywood production.  I think I may even get a BluRay recording for this show.  Now if there is a sequel …

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Diary

$50 No Show Fine

If you don't show up at your desk, you will be fined!

Avid readers may recall my morning ritual of desk booking at work.  3 months have passed and the ritual stays more or less the same.  Except more and more of our colleagues are moving into our building.  Seats become a scarce resource.  Good seats in especially.  And scarce resource always drive bizarre human behaviors, much like what our history tells us.  Bosses ask the subordinates to book the desks for the entire team (we can only book our desks online up to one week in advance).  Some occupy the seats establishing the first-come-first-take rule.  Some bring the company laptops home and book the seats in early morning, in wee hours.  Wow!  It’s just a seat you know!

Colleagues often ask me why I choose to sit in different seats almost every day.  Well, given a choice, I would love to be stationary somewhere.  But since it has never come across my mind that I have to work hard to book “my favorite seat”, I don’t bother.

Previously, there is a S$5 fine if we don’t show up at the desk that we book (note: no one cares if we show up at work but rather at the desk).  That doesn’t seem to work.  On paper, every day is a full house.  In reality, it is hardly so.  Hence recently, the fine is increased to S$50.  That raises some eyebrows of course.

If there is one thing history tells us, we human beings are creative in finding ways to get around the system.  Increasingly, we are seeing seats being released in the very morning.  But for those who have already booked a crappy seat one week ago or have decided to work from home because there is no seat available, how does it matter?

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Linguistic My Hobbies

Pollo A La Crema De Maíz Con El Arroz Al Vapor – Now, How About That?!

Mr. Chicken says to Ms Maze, "Let's have some rice".

Thank you for not hating my doodles.  Drawing can be very therapeutic at times.  Truth been told, though we often complain in the Spanish class that we dislike homework or deberes, I reckon we all secretly love it.  This week’s homework was to write a recipe or receta.  In fact, I looked forward to writing it as I love to cook.  Inside Facebook, my buddy Alex’s wife Shirley suggested paella; my blogger friend Tigerfish suggested fried rice (by the way, you ought to check out her site if you love cooking).  Both are great ideas and they got me thinking.  Of course, being so behind time, it has never occurred to me that I could Google a recipe in Spanish and present it in the class.  So I did it the hard way.  Armed with my passion towards Chinese cooking and my electronic dictionary inside my wireless phone, below is the recipe for Pollo A La Crema De Maíz Con El Arroz Al Vapor, or in English, Chicken in Cream Corn Served with Steamed Rice (hence the doodle).

OK.  I made quite a number of mistakes in the original version.  Our teacher Natalia has patiently corrected them for me.  ¡Gracia!

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Pollo A La Crema De Maíz Con El Arroz Al Vapor

Dificultad: Fácil
Preparación: 5 minutos
Cocción: 10 minutos
Ingredientes: 2 personas

Ingredientes:

  • 1 pechuga de pollo
  • 1 huevo
  • 1 lata de crema de maíz
  • 1 cucharadita de azúcar
  • 1 cucharada de salsa de soja
  • Un poco de harina de maíz
  • Un poco de sal
  • 30 ml de agua
  1. Cortar en cuadritos la pechuga de pollo, adobar con un poco de sal, un poco de azúcar, un poco de harina de maíz, y un poco de salsa de soja.
  2. Sofreír removiendo el pollo.
  3. A cocción, agregar la crema de maíz, el agua, el azúcar, la salsa de soja, un poco de sal, y sin parar de remover.  Dejar hervir lentamente 5 minutos a fuego lento.
  4. Agregar el huevo, cocer poco.
  5. Servir con arroz al vapor.

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Disclaimer: Please don’t take the measurements as they are.  When I cook, I often cook with feeling.  It is not at all incorrect to say that I have no clue on how much salt or sugar or etc. I use.  Oh well … sorry!  Just go with the feeling, would you?