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Snippet Of My Life Episode 22 – My Hairdresser and I, and the Random Observations near My Workplace

Cross Not In Operation

What triggered the longer than usual conversation between my hairdresser and I, covering topics that we have not ventured into, even after more than 10 years of my regular visit, I do not know.  Maybe it was the closing hours.  An empty salon with me wanting a haircut, her working with the shaver and scissors with such dexterity, and the rest of the staffs idled, waiting for the clock to strike eight-thirty.  All of a sudden, she pondered out loud on how long we have known each other.  More than 10 years I reckon.  She nodded, I nodded, and we smiled.  More than 10 years we reckon.  “We are both getting old,” she giggled.  “No, you look the same.  I am the one who is getting older.  Look at my white hairs!” I gasped.

My hairdresser is the quiet type, seldom talks.  And she understands my Cantonese.  She never complains about my straw-like hairs that are harder to style, take much longer to cut.  Unlike what some hairdressers did in the past.  Most amazingly, she is always there.  I know which day of the week she is off.  She lets me know her holiday schedule in advance.  She even called me once to let me know that she has moved to a different branch, in a different mall.  Every three weeks, I turn up at the salon.  And she is always there.  We always stick to the same hairstyle, for many years.  Then one day, she wanted to do something different.  That didn’t bother me.  Variety always does people good.  Whatever that makes her happy.  That new style didn’t last.  And she morphed that into something else, during one of my subsequent visits, while I was napping.  That too, didn’t bother me.

No, I wouldn’t have known that she is older than me.  Shocking, indeed.  Yes, I guessed right that she is still single, which too is shocking.  She looks decent, and sweet, charming, and attractive.  But I reckon even Cupid can have some hits and misses.  Coincidentally, on the same day, I had another conversation with a friend of mine, on her relationship that doesn’t seem to work out.  She too looks decent, and sweet, charming, and attractive.  This world is strange, in a melancholy way.  If I could champion one new idea for this coming new decade of 2010, I would encourage everyone to set a target to get married and have kids by the age of 22, not later than 24.  Start the high key dating process when you turn 16, not later than 18.  This world would be a much happier place, in so many ways.  Think about it.

I had my fear prior to moving to my newly relocated workplace, away from the central business district.  Now that I am three months into the move, in a strange way, I begin to like where I am.  I guess if you are the type that often see the good in the things around you – though some may argue that the good and bad in life is nothing but illusion – it doesn’t quite matter where you stay.  Next to my workplace there is a museum.  Opposite is a university.  Just a stone’s throw away is a Cathedral.  At about five every evening, I hear the chiming of the church bell.  Within a five minutes walking distance, there is a mosque, a state-of-an-art cinema, restaurants of low end to mid to high end.  There are expensive hotels, service apartments, private condos, and there are a good numbers of cheap motels.  There is a KTV next to Hotel 81.  Down the road, there are dubious health centers and night clubs and more KTV joints dotted along the main road that leads all the way into Little India.

I often leave office on time (if there is another idea to champion for this coming new decade of 2010, that would be: It is OK to leave your workplace on time).  But on one particular evening, I had to stay till seven, which is late for my standard.  As I dragged my tired body out of the office and into the condo where my car was packed, I saw a group of young girls in very tight, dark, and sexy outfits, by the taxi stop in front of the motel and the KTV.  As I walked towards them, more taxis pulled up at the stop and more girls with similar outfits stepped out of the vehicles and joined the group.  What a scene!  Seven o’clock, the magic hour of the assembly.  Surprise, it was not.  As I often see groups of girls with such outfit, pacing along this stretch of the street, at times on the phone.  Some would wrap their arms onto some Westerners.  Maybe they are legitimate couples, I wouldn’t have known.  Some days at around nine in the morning, I would spot some girls dressed in sexy party outfits, san make-up, walking out of the motels looking for a taxi.

But if I am to instead take the pedestrian walkway on the opposite side of the road, away from the stretch of motels and lounges, I would inevitably bump onto what I presume as students of art and fashion design.  The school is just right there.  Some look like models, with short skirts and long boots.  With fashionable hairstyle, very fashionable or rather unique outfits.  Some carry a huge portfolio of what I presume as drawing of their designs.  Most hang out with their friends.  Cigarettes in their hands.  Oh happy student’s life.

Either walkway I choose, I often bump onto tourists trying to haul a taxi, get frustrated that the taxis don’t stop for them.  And I would direct them to the nearest taxi stand, where there is often a queue of taxis waiting for passengers.  And no, please don’t jaywalk like that.  There is a traffic light down the road.

Between my office building and the university opposite, there is a pedestrian traffic light that is only in operation during non-rush hours.  During rush hours, it is perpetually lit up in red.  Initially, like many pedestrians I observed, myself included, did not know of this strange traffic light behavior.  Then one day I spotted a little signboard (that has always been there I suppose), next to the traffic light, stating the operation hours.  I suspect many don’t notice the signboard.  Everyday, I used to see someone standing there, getting frustrated, and has decided to cross the road in red regardless, causing the left-turning traffic to stop.  It affects me, as a driver, because the traffic light timing does not take into account of the crossing pedestrians, during rush hours, on that particular crossing.

Then, the land transport authority did something smart.  They printed the traffic light operation hours onto the road, which cannot be missed.  Whoever thought of that deserves a medal.  That idea simply works.

One morning, I saw a pedestrian traffic light next to the condo where I park my car partially vanished, only left with the main shaft bent in an unnatural way.  What knocked the entire traffic light off, I have no clue.  Did something knocked the traffic light off, I have no clue.  The next day, it was replaced by a brand new shinny traffic light.  And on that day, across the junction on my right, a van stopped at the traffic light, with a missing wheel.  20 or so meters away from the van, a wheel lied motionless on the road.  In around that few blocks of buildings, near my workplace, I often see the same girl, for a few consecutive days, or a few consecutive times within the day.  Then all of a sudden, I don’t see her walking on the street anymore.  And that is replaced by another girl, on another day, in the same area.  In around that few blocks of buildings, there is an old man, with a crumpled face, slowing pacing around the blocks on a walking stick, every morning.  I can almost tell the time by where I meet him.

Maybe all these strange encounters are simply illusions.  Maybe time itself is an illusion.  May all these flashbacks are simply frames that will fill up yet another 10 years of my life.  What triggered this longer than usual blog entry, I do not know.

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Diary Reflection Whacky Thoughts

32 Weeks Have Passed And I Now Have My To-do List

Recently, I read an entry from one of my friend’s private blog.  It is kind of private because I promise her long time ago that I wouldn’t make a link into her site.  She said, six months have passed and she still doesn’t know what she wants to do.  And she has another six months to figure that out.

That inspires me to think: August is here, what have I done so far?  My friends ask me what happens to my band and I go … erm.  They ask if I still write songs and I go … erm.  What happen to that association?  Do you still paint?  I haven’t seen you for ages, what have you been doing?

Erm.

I update my Facebook status often.  Often on what I plan to do.  I reckon if I write something in public – like in here or in any social networking site – I am committed to something.  And there is a higher chance that something gets done, which is better than always thinking of doing something that never get done.

So from now till December 31, I am committed to do the followings.  All of the followings.  Items one, to seven.

1. Do up my MySpace page and put a song or two inside (est. effort: 40 hrs)

I love my band.  If it was up to me, I would set up a practice or recording session every weekend.  Maybe we shall have a summer break and a Christmas break.  But other than that, we should meet up regularly and jam.  Because I believe that any serious hobby warrants a once a week practice.  Like my Spanish lessons.  The reality is, we meet only once in two months, three months.

And if it was up to me, I would like to do some decent recording and share with the public.  But my [lower] standard is not the same as some of my band mates.  I am a blogger.  I produce contents on a near daily basis.  I am happy to share the demo musical works with my readers regularly.  Keep the engagement going.  To hear some feedback, and to grow.  Especially when that CD quality band recording seems so impossible to attain given our pace.  Time to do some solo works.  More like an incubator of for the band, at my personal turbo pace (everything in life is relative).

2. Finish digitalizing my CD collection (est. effort: 24 hrs)

As of today, I have already digitalized 11,127 music tracks.  Just keep going!  Don’t stop!

3. Clear the photo back log (est. effort: 75 hrs)

I would love to visit the Singapore Zoo and take some pictures but I don’t feel like doing so.  Because I have such a huge back log to clear.  The good news is that I have established some kind of Sunday rhythm to spend some time with the photo processing and categorization work.

4. Properly tag my 1,100+ blog entries (est. effort: 24 hrs)

Tagging is a new concept for me.  I put my entries into fixed categories, year after year.  Recently, I discover that there is something called tagging, alongside with categories.  I may be messy in real life.  But I love structures.  So I will have to go through each entry one by one and tag them nicely.

5. Spanish!  Onto Lower Intermediate and read a Spanish book (est. effort: 24 hrs + ?? hrs)

After 20 lessons of Beginner level, 20 lessons of Elementary level, Cynthia and I are heading to the Lower Intermediate class.  The date is set: August 25th.  But there is a catch.  We have to pass the examination on August 22nd.  That is hard!  Super hard!  I am really not good at the language department.  But I will try.

About that Spanish book … we shall see.

6. Quick recording of all my 158 songs (est. effort: 158 hrs)

Year 1994, I wrote my first song.  I reckon I still remember most if not all my 158 songs.  However, I know one day my memory may fade.  And some of those songs may be lost forever.  Now, that’s sad.  In view of this rather probable rather depressing reality, I have always wanted to record all my work.  It’s not as easy as it sounds.  I tend to spend time rewriting the parts that didn’t work, readjusting the key of the song, and on top of that, being a perfectionist, I wanted to do some decent recording.  That project didn’t last.

So now, I have reset my goal.  I need some quick and dirty recording.  Get it over and done with.  Some sort of documentation.  And then, I can pick ones that I like and do a better job.  Have them posted to MySpace (see point #1) for public sharing.

7. Seek direction on that blogger association I am associated with

I have to find an answer to that question: Where are we heading?  I am looking forward to seeing a new team.  Either way, my 1 year tenure will be up, after this year end.  A toast to all-good-things.

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Wow, a total of 344 hours span over the remaining 20 weeks.  Now you know why I need a more balanced working life.  And unlike some of you, I am not inspired to work that extra hours for the big bucks plus promotion (otherwise, why would you trade more time with the same amount of reward?).  If I can complete all of the above before 2009 ends, I can start 2010 with a much lighter load.

On a separate note, one day I was really excited setting up my N97 as a web server – a future looking solution from Nokia Beta Labs.  What is more interesting is how people react to this ‘concept solution’.  One friend listened with interest and immediately, you can see his mind was working fast and he nodded: this could be useful.  One friend cracked some jokes on the potential applications, kind of similar to my initial dramatic thought that involves a striking long legged spy and her N97 (you can activate the phone’s camera remotely via Internet anywhere in the world amongst other bizarre things you can do).  Another friend, a Nokia non-supporter said: It is kind of pointless eh?

Life is full of pointless little things, I think.  At times I wonder what is the point in spending time with those social networking sites.  Recently, I looked into the periodic table via a free application called “Elements” from the Nokia OVI Store.  Did you know that there is an element called Einsteinium (Es)?  Its existence, from what I read, is pretty pointless.  Named after you-know-who.  To artificially create Einsteinium, first you need to irradiate plutonium-239 inside a nuclear reactor for couple of years.  Then mix the resulting plutonium-242 isotope with aluminum and further irradiate this mixture inside a nuclear reactor for another year or so.  The result is a mixture of Californium and Einsteinium that can be separated.

So, what’s the use of Einsteinium?  It could be pointless to some.  Or as an intermediate step in advancing scientific research to others.  I wonder if it would be safe to drink from a mug made in Einsteinium.

Einsteinium on Nokia app Elements

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Snippet Of My Life Episode 21 – Endless Wondering

An artistic view of what I see every day

I often wonder: What is your morning ritual at work like?  I once followed the blog sites of a paramedic and a restaurant server and what excitingly interesting lives they have!  Office life doesn’t make great movie story.  If I have to think of one, I think of “Being John Malkovich”.  I really can’t think of any other.

Every morning I spend a quarter of an hour or so taking out my laptop and my personal stuffs from my locker, heading to the desk I have booked one week ago, and waiting for Windows to boot up.  Windows!  What would this world be had there be no Windows?  A more productive world, I reckon.  A less frustrating world, I reckon.

I wonder who came up with this hot desking idea in an office whereby most of us are stationed in Singapore.  So we take turn in bumping each other out as we book our seats one week in advance.  I need a little notebook to keep track of the desk numbers, against the calendar days.  I embrace hot desking system.  But playing musical chair at work is just silly.

So every morning I spend another quarter of an hour waiting for the office applications to load up, clicking through the desk booking system that somewhat looks like the picture on top of this post (pardon my artistic touch), and think: Hmmm … where shall I sit 7 days from now?

And I open up the image of the office floor plan, try to recall which are the seats not to book.  At times, I either get a friendly email from the secretary if I accidentally book her boss’s seat or on the day itself, get reassigned to another.  Some areas are unofficially reserved for team clusters that tend to be more territorial.  We even have a term for those – ‘land mines’.  On top of that, I do have my personal preferences like not wanting to face the toilet door or the meeting rooms.  Everybody does online desk booking 7 days in advance.  I wonder how much time we spend everyday just to get a seat to work.

Something is not right but no one is doing anything.  Similar to how we accept a trash operating system for a decade and more.

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JoikuSpot

Last week I have converted my car into mobile Wi-fi hotspot.  Thanks to my N97.  So if you are to ride with me, you have free Wi-fi access on the road.  Today’s lunch, I have converted myself into a walking Wi-fi hotspot.  I really want the Internet Radio bad.  So bad that it has to be done at all cost.  I want to listen to Internet Radio in the car, at work, and on the road – like I was used to with my old N96.  Because I have 30Gb mobile data quota to burn every month.  Because I am learning Spanish.  And more importantly, because I like to listen to things that are not what everybody around me is listening to.

So I walked around the blocks, this lunch time.  Deep inside my trousers’ left pocket, my N97 was running hot as a Wi-fi hotspot converting 3.5G mobile signal into a wireless network.  Deep inside my right pocket, my N96 was running hot as a Wi-fi receiver, broadcasting the radio transmission to my earphones all the way from Spain using the Internet connection provided by my N97 inside my left pocket.  And as I was walking on the street, this lunch time, I couldn’t help but to visualize the amount of radiation and invisible action that happened from my left trousers pocket to the right, and in between …

I sincerely hope that my genetic replicating devices are OK, amidst the heat and the radiation.  If Nokia is reading this, please hurry up with the development of the Internet Radio for your newer phones.  What’s taking you so long, I wonder. 

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Ever since I have moved to a different office location, so far away from my friends in town, ever since my team has reduced into a one-man-show, ever since Cynthia has left Singapore for a business trip, if not for the occasion phone calls I have during the working hours, I could theoretically not to speak more than 10 words a day (still need to order food).  It doesn’t take too long to eat when you are alone.  So these days, I have plenty of time to read during lunch.  And because I don’t talk much, I have plenty of time to think.

My life today reminds me of my business trip to Paris long time ago.  Between Friday’s have-a-good-weekend to Monday’s how-was-your-weekend, I hardly had a conversation with anyone over the weekend.  Now, I don’t even have someone to have-a-good-weekend and how-was-your-weekend with at work.

Strange, in a melancholic way.

Fortunately, Cynthia is coming home this Sunday.  What would my life be like if I was still single?  I wonder.

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On My Birthday We Visited Medan Ikan Bakar at Malacca (Again)

Meda Ikan Bakar

My observation on age as such: besides the age that you can legally have s … ahem … your own driving licence and the one that grants you lots of discount everywhere you go because you are senior, age is just a number that has little significance.  Some achieve more than others at their age; some look better than others at their age; some manage to defy the gravitational pull of music-from-my-good-old-days-sounds-much-better-than-today’s-hits better than others.  As for me, I am so going to watch Lady Gaga’s concert when she comes to Singapore.

My birthday is my holiday, always.  And I woke up at nine this morning with my head still spinning after a long night of online gaming.  Our team lead of 5 – a good online friend of ours – lightly commented that we were not performing up to our usual standard.  I said the obvious, “It’s three in the morning, ha ha ha.”  Cynthia and I were more or less randomly hitting the buttons like two sleepy zombies.  Game mission accomplished nonetheless, sort of.

Processing my band’s studio jamming materials took much shorter time than anticipated.  Probably because I have already spent much time running through the recording during the week.  At about eleven-thirty, I said to Cynthia, who also took leave because I did, “Let’s have lunch at the Botanic Gardens.  Grab our passports, we may dine in Malacca.”

We love road trips.  Road trip for couples is like golf for business partners.  It is almost like having an undivided attention for each other for hours.  In fact, I think all couples should go through the road trip test amongst other ‘tests’ that I will cover in my new book “Things You Wish You Had Done Before Saying I Do”.

OK.  There’s no such book.  I am pulling your legs.  Below are some of the photos taken today.

Malacca has changed a lot, over the last decade.  It is now inscribed as a World Heritage City, though we have no clue which organization inscribes such a title.  We arrived at Malacca way before dinner time so we road-toured the city.  Now, there is a Malacca Eye by the sea (something like the Singapore Flyer), a few new malls, and we need to buy parking coupons instead of putting coins into the parking meter.  Maybe these changes have been around for years.  We seldom tour the city.  We visit Malacca to have seafood, a location outskirt of Malacca.

We always had difficulties in finding “Medan Ikan Bakar” (translates to Baked Fish Eating House I think).  Each time, we would spend an hour or two trying to find the place.  Each time, we would document the direction in exactitude only to realize in the next trip that the landscape has changed.  Malacca is not small.  And it is easy to get lost.

I can certainly say it with conviction that Nokia Map has changed the way we travel.  The maps are free, the GPS service is free.  Not only do I know exactly where I am, it knows a list of landmarks around the area too.  I don’t need to pay for and install a separate device just for this function.  It comes with the phone.  So, on my birthday, we arrived at the Baked Fish Eating House at ease.

Every morning, fishing boats arrive at the shore and unload some of the seafood to the long stretch of restaurants nearby.  I have seen the days when this area was so popular that it literally took hours to find a parking space.  In our recent visits, there seems to be an increased number of parking lots.  Also, maybe because we often avoid the weekend crowds and we prefer to dine early, we dine in leisure.

We had a sea bass (baked), six gigantic prawns (baked), some squids (sweet source), a vegetable dish, and three portions of rice.  The sea food tasted fresh and the fish was juicy.  The total bill came up to about RM 55 (which is about S$25?).  I thought it was reasonable.  Note: for my future reference, we spent RM 200+ for this brief out-of-town experience.

For those of you who have the Nokia Map installed in your phone, download the Malaysia map and punch in “Pernu Umbai”.  The search result of “Medan Ikan Bakar Pernu Umbai” should appears (186.7km from my home!).  For other map users, try this coordinates: 2° 9′ 21″ N, 102° 20′ 9″ E.  Or if you trust my direction (I have tested it on the way back and it is accurate to the one hundredth meter), click here and scroll all the way to the bottom.

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Fragments Of My Dreams Episode 13 – Goldfish and Key (And the Sketches It Inspires)

It is dark, like in a comic book setting. An open square under the Spanish moonlight with exaggerated lines of perspective that define characters of structure and rigidness. Short buildings afar vaguely form the silhouette of what are beyond the square, that in turn form the perimeter of this image. The main subject is this long line of travellers – all with sharp features, dressed in business suits – waiting to board a bus. I see a line of people so I queue up. “Is this bus heading to Paris,” I ask the gentleman in front of me. And he says in half French, half English: No, take the one from the Regent Hotel. “Regent Hotel you said?” I ask. “Oui, oui,” he replies.

A sketch by me - A Long Line of Travellers

In this foreign country, I don’t know where the Regent Hotel is. It has to be somewhere nearby. So I inquire and find myself inside a hotel. Except it looks more like a museum after closing hour. Inside the dark interior, a young slender white lady dressed in business attire with her back against a set of floor to ceiling windows looks at me with her curious eyes. Faint orange light from the street floods into the interior of a quiet spacious hall illuminates her feature, illuminates the feature of this hall. I take out the map and inquire the location of Regent Hotel. She points somewhere at the map with her slender finger and we converse in half Spanish, half English. “¿Cinco estaciones?” I reconfirm the direction. “Sí, sí, cinco.” And her hand gesture confirms that where I want to go is five stations away from where I am.

She is friendly so we chat. I ask where she stays and she points at the map again, at a far side of the suburb, along the blue rail line. For reason beyond me, my plan of staying a weekend in Paris has been tossed off the balcony and it only seems natural that I accompany her to the train station of her destination. And so I do. We head to a metra station, she buys a ticket for me and another more expensive one for herself as she stays further.

The metro station looks really gloomy, old and dirty. Graffiti everywhere; people laughing everywhere. Millions of commuters must have smoothed the staircases to a level that we have to pay attention in order not to slip and fall. An open top train that looks like a dragon boat on wheels equipped with five or six individual seats so obscurely placed arrives. Passengers in shabby clothing cheer as the train aligns at the platform. My companion and I exchange a look and hastily head out to the exit. As the small shabby door closes behind us, I catch the sign saying, “Amusement Park”. How do we end up here in the first place, I have no clue.

A sketch by me - Dragon Boat Train

Next, we emerge to a platform with four lift lobbies. The glass wall enables us to see the behind-the scene machinery and I see a staircase leading to the upper level, another one to the lower one. Sunlight leaks into the platform through the glass wall. I observe a digital number displays on top of each lift door. A number that indicates the lift’s destination, not where it is currently at. My companion insists that we have to take the lift heading to the 11th floor with the digits in blue color. Out of curiosity, I take the stairs instead.

I see a large group of people standing inside a perimeter that resembles a train, but there is no train. I join the crowd and on top of us, there is a huge elongated dome shaped metal made of bronze, follows the shape of the perimeter directly below. A man sits near me looking at a small screen and his assistance says to him, “[…] ready to be activated” (did I hear the word ‘teleporter’?). The seated man nodded and I sense shocks on my vision. Everything around me distorts and pulsates to the humming beat of the machine above us. The assistant points at the screen that displays the outline of each of us in various primary colors, zooms into a dog and says, “I don’t think we have tested on animals yet.” I am worried and I jump out of the perimeter. No way am I going to be teleported as some kind of scientific experiment!

The man in his seat – the “driver” I suppose – halts the machine and comforts me, “It is a simple health screening procedure, Sir. Nothing to worry about.” Reluctantly I step back into the perimeter, let the officer to do whatever needs to be done. As the machine stops, the crowd moves away from the perimeter and lines up in front of the driver. When it is my turn, he issues me a 2 pages long handwritten assessment almost immediately. How can he write so fast? I am shocked. And he tells me to follow the rest and head to the medical center.

A doctor comes out of a room and shouts, “Next!” I enter, in a dreamy state, and we chitchat. The doctor is very talkative, talking about people whom he met on the plane, and on the way to work. Suddenly, his tone changes and asks, “So, why do you want to see a doctor?” I stuttered, not sure why I am inside a consultation room in the first place. He frowns and says, “I see. Is it ED?”

Nearly chock on his question and I tell him that I am one hundred percent OK. I apologise for wasting his time, get out of my seat, and leave the room. The doctor follows me to the door and shouts, “Next!”

On my way out, I am stopped by a nurse. A beautiful, slutty with attitude kind of nurse. Like that poster girl for Grand Theft Auto who sucks onto a lollipop. And she says, “We have a mission for you.”

A few failed sketches

What follows is hard to describe. Imagine I am one of the two goldfish that is inside a plastic bag, underwater. And there are another two groups of goldfish inside two separate plastic bags that want to eat us alive. But they can’t because we are inside the plastic bags. Due to these goldfish’s desire to nimble on us, they propel us forward. What a strange way to travel underwater! Before long, I see a safe in cast iron with a kind of corrosion that you would expect to see from any treasure found inside shipwrecks. All of a sudden, my flesh returns to me and the next thing I see is a burst plastic bag and an unconscious goldfish (did I just kill my partner?). I collect all the goldfish, put them inside my pocket, still underwater, I work on the safe.

I open the tiny safe and find an ice cube inside. I retrieve the ice cube, look closely, and see a small metal object that resembles a small antique chip trapped in ice. Without much thinking, I put the ice cube inside my shirt’s pocket. The key is now safe with me.

Defies physics, I enter into the tiny safe and emerge into a modern decorated apartment of yellow and red. Moving in stealth, I head toward the hallway leading to the front door, which I presume is the exit. Too late, I see light shining from outside and someone is about to enter into the apartment. A man and a woman enter. Shifting from furniture to furniture quietly as I attempt to evade from my enemies. Nonetheless, I am caught when I am just inches away from the door. Expecting a conflict but all they do are pointing at my pocket and say, “Blood”. I look down and see blood oozing out from my shirt. The ice cube has melted and the tiny key is now working its way into my body, into my heart! I gasp and all of a sudden, the door is blast opened and outside stands a group of people – my people – including that slutty nurse. How they neutralize the enemies, I cannot recall. The nurse asks if I have got the key and I point at my blood stained shirt. She frowns and says, “Let’s go! You are now our key. We know where the door is.” The entire pack starts to run down the dark hallway, the one that reminds me of the amusement park that I was in not too long ago.

A sketch by me - Out of the Safe

Uh-oh. I don’t want to go into a keyhole.

PS. This dream was intense and I woke up on a Monday morning of July the sixth feeling exhausted. The images are so vivid. So are the dialogues in different languages. My first time to dream partially in Spanish. And I was inspired to sketch some of my visions onto paper.

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Fragments of My Dreams

Fragments Of My Dreams Episode 12 – All Collapsed Into A Line Of Singularity

Fragment of my dream

There are different shades of gray, from the floor to the walls to the ceiling overhung with bright spotlights.  Well polished and wide open space, the kind of prestigious corporate working environment that is so commonly seen in almost every movie, in almost all our dreams – be it as a real dream like mine or as a concept people have in mind.  I am in black suit, so is my assistant, and my boss too is in black and she asks, “What’s your career aspiration?”  I give a straight answer without thinking too much.  Then comes a moment of silence.  My boss cocks her head sideway and says, “So, here is what you want to be in mid term: to support the business”.  An image of me conjured not too far away from me, straight ahead of me.  “And here is what you want to be in long term: to make business,” she continues as another image of me appeared pretty far down the hall, kind of way off tangent.  “You see, there is no direct line.  It’s hard.  But here is a better alternative.”  A third image of me is conjured directly ahead of the first one – the mid term me – and she says, “A much bigger role in supporting the business”.

I give it some thought, inside a sauna room full of business men.  There must be a way to fulfill my own aspiration.  Life sucks in supporting the business.  Inside the hot steamy room, with men in black suits, and I think of a MBA program.  The more I think about it, I feel as though I have already enrolled into a MBA program.  I begin to feel the stress of a MBA program.  The anxiety associated with examination after examination suddenly hits me.  I so dread examinations.  And as I ponder upon my future …

*   *   *

I am a bodyguard.  And I have two co-workers.  My boss is in his fifties or sixties, silver hair, crumpled face, but still very alert.  We live in a pleasant Western neighborhood of the colors green and brown, sunshine and tranquility, the kind of pleasant upper class living environment that is so commonly seen in almost every movie, in almost all our dreams.  As we stroll along the street of our neighborhood, what happens next is hard to describe.  It is illogical, it defies physics.  Imagine you are viewing us from above, out of nowhere, in slow motion: two cars appear from our sides, getting closer and closer to each other and bam!  They smash onto one another, side-by-side, with our boss stuck in the middle.  The car on the left, my boss, the car on the right, all collapse into a singularity – one straight line.  It is a daylight murder!  I commanded my two co-workers to yank open the wrecks and recover our boss.  Our boss is in coma.

*   *   *

I know who did that monstrous act: A man in black suit with his bodyguard and a dog in black.  Someone in the neighborhood moved in not long ago.  Inside a posh hotel, one that appears in every other movie and dream, my plan of distracting the bodyguard and then poison him does not take off.  I have an alternative plan: to take down the black dog with the same plan.  As I sneak pass the hotel restaurant, heading towards the lift lobby, the lift door opens and the black dog emerges.  How fierce it is!  Monstrous!  It barks; I try to shut it up; and it bits onto my right fist.  I am expecting pain but all I feel is the wetness and the warmth, inside the mouth of a dog that has no teeth!  I see a crowd coming to my direction.  What the heck am I suppose to do with this dog?

PS. My dream over the weekend.

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Snippet Of My Life Episode 20 – Extreme Idol, Extreme Sport, Extreme Spanish Verb

Extreme Spanish Verb

Extreme Idol

So Adam Lambert didn’t win the title.  On the next day, I briefly joined the countless of fans reading through hundreds of comments easily found in the Internet.  It was as though we all need a global support group, to hear that common voice.  Majority of the younger audience these days probably won’t appreciate the vocal powerhouse of Freddy Mercury or Axl Rose, the mighty guitar skill of Slash and Brain May.  So get over it.  We all love Poker Face more.  It would have been nice for Adam’s career had he gained the title.  Then again, I think it is the American Idol franchise’s loss more than anything else. 

I love the franchise.  And due to the time difference, by the time we get to watch the result shows in Singapore, there bound to be someone around us who can’t contain the emotion and broadcasts the result.  To some, it’s no big deal.  To others, the anticipation throughout the day, the excitement of spending an hour or two in front of a TV to wait for that very nail biting moment is gone, utterly spoilt.  So I have developed this natural defence system.  On the day of the result show, I would avoid visiting Facebook and even CNN.  On the season finale, I would take leave if I could.  And if I couldn’t, like this year, I would not read any text messages sent to my phone.  Call me if you need to contact me.  I would not watch the tiny television inside the lift and I would listen to my music throughout the day if possible.  For two consecutive years, Cynthia – rather sad really as she too is a fan of American Idol – knew the result prior to the finale because someone sent her a text message.  Throw that phone away, just for a day.

Extreme Sport

Unlike American Idol, my new interest F1 is usually broadcast live on a Saturday and Sunday afternoon or evening.  I love watching F1.  Such an extreme sport.  To win a race, the car constructor has to do a fabulous job in constantly evolving the car throughout the season, the engineer has to closely monitor the car’s condition, traffic condition ahead and behind, weather condition, competitors’  lapping performance, and decide on the pit stop strategy, the driver has to perform and take care of the car during the race, and the team has to adapt to the different circuit challenges as they tour the world for the race.  Accidents may happen, safety car may come out, mistake can happen anytime, anywhere that some teams may be able to take advantage of while others cannot.  And it is a flawless execution of the entire team, from qualifying round to the actual race, that has a higher chance of a podium celebration.  F1 is not just some cars going round and round in circle.  These are the meanest machinery on Earth that can go beyond a speed of 300 km per hour.  It’s an extreme sport with rule of the game changes every year.

Extreme Spanish Verb

If day one of my Spanish Class was to start with Spanish Verbs, I would have quited long ago.  In Spanish, the verb ir means to go.  In English, we have the verb forms goes, going, went, and gone for the verb ‘go’.  What about its Spanish equivalent?  To conjugate the verb ir, we need two pages of text (see picture above).  Those highlighted in red are without any pattern.  You have to exercise brutal memorization for that one irregular verb.  And these conjugations are not often found in the dictionaries.  You have to know their model form.  Ir is one of the hardest verb to remember, I reckon.

Below is a straightforward regular verb vivir side-by-side with the English equivalent – to go – in four simple tenses.

  • (I) live, (you) live, (he/she) lives, (we) live, (you [plural]) live, (they) live / vivo, vives, vive, vivimos, vivís, viven
  • (I) lived, (you) lived, (he/she) lived, (we) lived, (you [p]) lived, (they) lived / viví, viviste, vivió, vivimos, vivisteis, vivieron
  • (I’ll) live, (you’ll) live, (he/she’ll) lives, (we’ll) live, (you’ll [p]) live, (they’ll) live / viviré, vivirás, vivirá, viviremos, viviréis, vivirán
  • (I’ve) lived, (you’ve) lived, (he/she has) lived, (we’ve) lived, (you’ve [p]) lived, (they’ve) lived / he vivido, has vivido, ha vivido, hemos vivido, habéis vivido, han vivido

That covers 25% of the verb conjugation for ‘to live’ in Spanish.  In case if you wonder, that is not the most amazing thing I have observed today.  In today’s class, our teacher Natalia played an audio clip on several repeats and Cynthia was able to pick up major sentences while I was staring into space.  That, is extreme Spanish, from me to you for me.  (OK, you have to be an American Idol fan to get this).

I look forward to Adam Lambert’s upcoming release that goes without saying, my anticipation does come with hopes and fears.  I look forward to a good F1 season though the memory of the last season has hardly faded and now we do it all over again.  I may still watch the next season of American Idol and most likely, I will drill deep into the land of extreme Spanish Verbs, this weekend, and do what I best in doing: extreme memorization.

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Diary Reflection

Into the Valley of Selegie

An area around Selegie

A few good friends of mine commented that I have come to a full circle when I told them that (1) I’ve moved to a “new” office that isn’t new and (2) year 2000 I worked at the same building for the same employer.  The difference is: I was a consultant to them back then and am one of their gazillion employees now.  I have no idea what a full circle means.  Year 2000 was perhaps a mini-peak of my career.  And then kind of crashed and burned for a while.  Recently, things started to look up and then I am working in the same building as I was nine years ago.  Now, is that a full circle?  What is a full circle?

Back in the beginning of this millennium, the surrounding area of my office was awesome.  Vast area of greenery right in the middle of the city.  And then the unthinkable happened: our government has decided to build a university that spans across adjacent plots of beautiful parks.  I was much saddened, kind of upset.  Today, Singapore Management University (SMU) looks pretty awesome, architect in a way that blends in well with the surrounding.  But I still prefer the parks to a set of buildings that mean nothing to me, personally.

I still prefer the newer looking old office to my older looking new office.  One friend at work said to me: Once it gets into your system, you’ll be fine with it.  My desk space has shrunk at least 4 times; I no longer have my own desk; there are junks, empty water bottles, half drank water bottles left behind from the previous occupants; dust everywhere; I now look up and see tons of faces staring at me; and there are even more staring at the back of my head.  These two days, I have this hallucination that I am working inside a cube farm.  I know what I am producing each day.  I wonder what everyone else are producing each passing moment.  Time to get plugged in.  I need a phone line.

I am a natural when it comes to making myself happy creatively and realistically.  So I took the opportunity to explore the area during my lunch hours.  It turned out so fun that I am going to set up a plan to explore this strange neighborhood systematically.  Day one after my brief lunch, I took a walk into the area of Selegie, discovered quite a number of eating places, old fashioned shops that sell interesting stuffs, new shops that are opening soon, quite a number of night clubs, and I came face-to-face with the awesome looking building called LASALLE College of the Arts.  I took some pictures with my phone.  I wish I had my dSLR with me.

I took a picture of LASALLE in year 1996 when the construction was started and another one in 1997 when it was completed (see my previous blog entry).  Perhaps life is as such: At times we go through changes in life and some are dusty, some are messy, and through all these unpleasantness, inconvenience, something good, something beautiful may blossom.

LASALLE College of Arts

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Snippet Of My Life Episode 18 – It’s Business Time

My working place looks like this (taken using Nokia N96)

It is as though our tiny little island has been engulfed by a thick blanket of sleepiness, most I talk to are feeling kind of tired, myself included.  Maybe recession has taken a toll on our energy level, maybe Good Friday is so close yet so far.

“I’m paid as a writer,” all of a sudden I said to Cynthia this morning.  Last night, my very good old friend from Hong Kong suggested that I shall write a book.  Gosh!  And I was toying with the fantasy of making a living out of writing for the entire evening.  Then this morning it hits me, I am paid as a writer.  In the day time, I write business papers, I write business emails, I write business minutes, and if someone was to sell me a $1,000 titanium stylish business keyboard, I would buy one.  I can’t make a living without a keyboard.  And throw in a titanium stylish business mouse too, please.

Beautiful sun, this lunch time.  One lovely colleague – my good friend – invited me to join her.  So I did.  So I followed.  Asia Civilizations Museum we went.  “Why are we going there for lunch?” I asked.  She said there was a corporate talk on strategy.  Haven’t I told you?

Zzzz.

I nearly did, fall asleep, with my empty stomach.  Then came the punch line: It is when companies stray away from the strategy they meet failure.  If you chew onto this piece of wisdom, it makes sense.

Biodegradable plates, cups, and utensils using corn and yam?!  Who would have thought?  After the talk, food was served, and I marveled at the dull brown plate that I was holding.  I took a sniff, it didn’t smell like corn nor yam.  I chewed onto it, it felt like plastic.  Amazing.

The last time Coffee Bean increased the price of the muffins, I stopped ordering them.  This week, I realized that they have changed the menu and increased the price of the coffee.  Fine.  No more Coffee Bean coffee for me then.  I am very price sensitive.  When electricity price went up, I started the habit of powering down all appliances from the mains.  When transport price went up, I started the habit of walking instead of taking a train within the city radius.  When petrol price went up, I …

OK, I still drive.

These days I am curious on the number of days in advance notice you need to give to your boss when you want to take leave.  Back in my days of being a consultant, applying for leave was just a text message away.  I mean, life can be spontaneous right?  If I suddenly want to take leave and drive to Malacca for a dinner, on my birthday, I should be able to, right?  So I turned to my friend in a Spanish Class, asked just that.  He told me that in his shipping business, his leave is planned in a quarterly basis.  OK.  No working in the shipping business for me.

One evening, I had an interesting conversation with Cynthia, on why some people can have relatively good bosses throughout their career while some are quite the opposite.  She pondered for a moment and replied, “Maybe there is something God want that someone to learn [from the tough bosses] but he or she is still not getting it yet?”

If you chew onto this piece of wisdom, it too makes sense.

PS. I seldom write a back-to-back entry on the same series.  But I thought this and my previous one bring out the contrast between my work area and my sister’s.  And the photograph was taken using my Nokia N96 a while ago.

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Snippet Of My Life Episode 17- Duality of the Little Things I Observe

This is where my sister works at ...

This morning, I entered the lift, a limping man was in front of me; I was wondering if that is permanent.  This morning, I sat down at my work desk, greeted by a leave request that was pending for my approval.  My colleague in his late fifties came by, told me that his brother-in-law passed away last Sunday.  And he needed time off, it’s an emergency.  Certainly, everything OK?  It was a peaceful death, in a sleep, he told me.  One topic led to another, and he shared with me some of the last moments of his loved ones, in the past.  His eyes went moist.  It is always the last moments of everything that we are holding dear to, aren’t we?  Life is fragile, he said.  If we want to say that something to that someone [such as I love you], do so today, I concluded.

One ex-colleague of Cynthia has recently passed away, in his sleep.  Last weekend, she showed me his Facebook page, heartfelt messages pouring in from all corners of the world.  How Internet has changed the way we interact.  Years ago, one World of Warcraft online gamer passed away.  Her guild organized an online funeral, within the game.  Many players turned up, to mourn.  Another opposing fraction too turned up, crashed the funeral, and mass slaughtered the mourners, within the online game.  Some cried for compassion; some said it’s a game.  Some people are just, not nice.  Like that driver who tailgated me, on the highway, high-beamed me while I was at my speed limit, overtaking.  Having cars on my left I had nowhere to go.  I am not going to pick up a speeding ticket just because someone is inches away from my back.  No sir.

This morning, I rethought my priorities in life.  I seldom see my little sister, though we are now living in the same country.  So I picked up my phone, called if she was available for lunch.  I envy her work location (see photo above).  Such serenity, away from the city center.  It was a lovely drive, bright and sunny.  What do brothers and sisters usually talk about?  I don’t know.  I need more practice.  Of course we talked about her honeymoon at New Zealand and my upcoming trip to Spain; and we talked about our parents in Hong Kong.  Yes, they miss us a lot.  My mom would call my sister out-of-nowhere just for a chat.  Then she would immediately call me.  And my mind would wander off halfway through our conversation.  Some movies are thought provoking.  In “Gran Torino”, Clint Eastwood called his son out-of-nowhere, and his son was too busy to talk.  OK, that hits me.  It is time to reprioritize.  My mom told my sister that half a month feels like half a year in Hong Kong.

On my way back, the sky was dark.  A sudden downpour and I thought of the Formula One match during the weekend.  My head was stuffed, still is, and I missed the highway exit.  Life is fragile, time to reprioritize, say what’s in my heart out, today.  I was drenched in rain, even with my golf umbrella, as I walked from the car park to my office.

This afternoon, I returned to my office building, after a lovely lunch with my little sister.  In front of me, the same limping man, walking towards me. And I wondered, is that permanent?