Okay, how shall I confess?
To confess the wrongdoing of my heart or the wrongdoing of my soul?
I have just followed my heart and that is what I end up with. Knowing that CC has a devoted boyfriend, going to see her very soon, how could I end up in …
Knowing that this well is so deep that a step forward will end up dead at the bottom, why would I just fall in love, like that again?
Must be – using one pain to cover another one.
This weekend, I have spent a lot of time with CC. I feel myself strongly attractive to her. But she has a very devoted boyfriend and I shall never even think about that at all.
Saturday night, she stayed at my apartment and watched TV together. We chatted quite a lot and … what a pity. Must be from the complex family background.
Today is US Independent Day. Only when we went to Hard Rock Café did we realize it.
Okay, woke up late and didn’t feel very well. Decided to see a doctor and ended up seeing one of the doctor in the apartment. Interesting to know that even the doctor refuses to take the ice cube in the restaurant and he even suggested to wash the apple with warm water.
Took one day off and went out for shopping. Spent most of the day watching MTV.
The best was yet to come. That was our (Kenneth, CC, and I) first time visit to Hard Rock Café. Had a delicious meal (the most decent place in Jakarta) and they left the place just when the live band appeared. For me, I stayed on and danced till two in the morning.
Only when I stepped into the taxi did I feel scared. I mean just me alone, and single and the driver (to me a small boy under eighteen) kept on telling me that the strip show is very exciting so on.
I am a decent guy right? Must live up to my decent reputation.
Today feel very sick. Stomachache and headache as well. The air con is so cold in the office. I was actually suffering all the way.
What a bad day.
Okay, today I feel a lot better. I didn’t approach CC just because she has offended me yesterday. She was very direct and I shall be better in listening to criticism.
Lunch time, Balquais suggested going to one of the oldest Japanese restaurant in Jakarta. Getting there was really tough as the driver didn’t know where was the place we were referring to. I still remember it was Chikini IV.
The food was quite cheap. And because I was so warm and friendly, the waitresses all laughed at me. They are nice people. Then we went to AC Jakarta. Quite an impressive office (very new).
At night? Well, had a Chinese meal (very cheap beer, so far) and had a (terrible) dessert at Fashion Café. They claimed that one will be open in Singapore next year. We shall see. The food is quite bad tough.
Went to gym again and accompany Balquais back to BUN and get her organiser (tomorrow needs to get up and go Bali). She was so happy when I said there is no problem at all.
Today, I am officially a communist. Hong Kong returned to China finally. Catherine, Balquais, Kenneth, Robert, and I was watching the CNN Live at my apartment. Kenneth’s wife called, Robert called his wife, Catherine’s boyfriend called and for me? No phone call. What a sad life.
We did celebrate this handover thing at one of the beautiful Chinese restaurant. Only $70 Singapore dollar per person. Chicken feet for the project. Robert even asked for a receipt with the tips added inside! I was so embarrassed.
Talking about embarrassment, Catherine and I had a big agreement over the fact that I love Singapore during lunch at McDonald’s. In the end, she pointed out that I make Hong Kong people shameful and I ”˜take advantage’ of Singapore and so on. I was so angry that I refused to talk to her for the whole night.
Playing guitar is fun. Really fun and as for body building, it is going well. I fell I have tightened a few muscles here and there. Occasionally thinking of you-know-who and the sadness seems to have ”˜matured’.