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The Movie Romeo and Juliet Moves Me

Spent half a day doing an evaluation on the Technical Team.  Another half a day having MUE meeting with Sophie and discussing the matter with Michel.  That guy has a temper problem.  Personally I don’t think he can handle the design at all.  Mohamed was very curious on what I wrote on the evaluation but of course, that is confidential.  For the eye of Aurore only.

Romeo and Juliet was on today, therefore I called up the BNP team.  In the end, Karin, Puyee (?) and Munchie came along.  All the literature was there.  At first it was kind of strange to mix the modern setting with the old literature but as the story went along, you kind of get use to it.

Romeo was very cute (and handsome) and Juliet was very sweet.  A very sad ending.  Indeed, just too sad.  It has such an impact on me!

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Kids, More Kids

Called up Annie this morning and I think that her personally life is not a lot better than mine.  Think about all the loneliness.  She commented that the new friends she made in Singapore is nothing compare to the old ones.  Yes, I agree.  In that case, doubt if I can get a girlfriend better than … oh no!  Not again!

The people around me in the office, so many of them are having kids.  Small kids.  That makes me really long for a family of my own.

As for the new guy Federick, don’t think I know him well yet.  Maybe one day.  And today, I can feel that Aurore may dislike me.  Probably because of the result of the status report.

Come to think of it, it could have been very nice if JP and I actually work out.  My house.  My house.  And that’s lost.  Think about the physical separation.  With her, we are complete.  Without her, well …

Today, I have received the study version of Revelation from Athena.  She is really nice.  Really nice.

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My Paris Collection – Footnotes

  1. “Spanish Dance” – Got the idea when I was dining in a Spanish restaurant. Truly amazing to see so much love around me.
  2. “Fire of Love” – It was an actual scene in real life. I was in Shrewsbury (UK) one fine night well after midnight. Right in front of me was a L-shaped Swan Lake and behind me was a large piece of farmland with a small castle. It is one of the magical moment in my life.
  3. “Love Mythology” – I was reading too much Greek Mythology at that point of time.
  4. “Strip” – Inspired by the people around me. Love is so fragile, isn’t it? Just when we think that people are different, we can be so similar in some aspects.
  5. “Death Marriage (Alternative Lyric)” – Simply an alternative to the original DM. After all, life is not supposed to be so sad, isn’t it? Eternal love …
  6. “Names That Shall Be Spoken. Names That Shan’t Be Spoken” – Funny thing is that if you try to think in a much wider sense, you seem to be able to include quite a lot different lights in life.
  7. “Passion” – Inspired by one fantastic black and white photo taken by one French artist.
  8. “Death Marriage” – The first question people usually ask was : What is the army of devil. As they read on, they do understand. The next question was : Who is the lighthouse. Well, not many people do witness the sacrifice of Love, do they?
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What Have I Gained in Paris?

Monday.  First day in the “new” office with two FX guys as Eric (the third one) is having a one week holiday.  Pretty quiet and made a few phone calls.  First one to UOB and finally found out that one of my card’s mailing address has not been changed.  That is why.  Second phone call to IRA and extended my deadline til June 27.

Francis called me up and I am sill very undecided about my future.  As he said that I will “shine” if I stay with VTF.  Oh god, really don’t know.

Nope, Mylene Farmer’s new concert album has not been out yet.  Felt really lonely today.  First, spent one hour at FNAC and went to a Tunisian Restaurant.  What have I gained in Paris?

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Killing Time

I couldn’t really sleep last night.  Gone to bed at 10:30 pm and woke up at 2:30 am.  And I couldn’t go back to sleep.  Got up, obsessed with my coming broadcast and tried to go back to sleep at six.  Couldn’t.  Hence ordered breakfast.

Eventually, woke up at noon.  Nice sunshine today.  Desperate to go out and bathed in the sun.  Contemplating whether to call the BNP guys or not but I didn’t.

Sunglasses on, I went done to Châtelet-Les-Halles and decided to watch “Blood and Wine”.  Took the same route as Claude took me to 2 days ago.  Had lunch at one very nice bar.  Actually planned to watch the show at six in the afternoon but I couldn’t wait no more.  Just too much time.  Hence watched it at four instead.

Very good show.  It’s Jack Nicholson.  Went to Virgin store and walked aimlessly at the busy street of Champs-Elysees.  In the end, decided to go back to Châtelet and had my Japanese food.

Been thinking of my future house all the time.  Suddenly I remember one of the reason of coming back to Paris was to be able save some money for my future home (+ decorations and so on).  Shame that things do not always work out the way they suppose to be.

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My Paris Collection – Passion

A picture of black and white.

Imagination extends. Two lovers kiss at this momentary silence. Everybody in the background fade to black. Just the two of them.

Time suspends. Moving planes travel in two different directions. All motions halt. Fade to black. Bunch of flower in their hands.

Enchanting moment. That is Passion.

Passion comes from longing.
Passion is like a burning candle.
Passion is tears and joy.
Passion redefines time.
Passion is an Agent of Love.

And when motion resumes, when the sand begins its descend in the hourglass, the picture begins to turn white and it begins to turn bright. My eyes are hurt and there is nothing to be seen.

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I Do Need a Lover

Weekend again.  As always, woke up really late.  This time is about five in the late afternoon.  Gone out for an Italian restaurant.  The food was good.  Wanted to watch a movie but I had too much alcohol.

I do need a lover.

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Love is Strong?

Today I was totally immersed in boredom.  Think of what to do was really a pain.  Therefore I decided to write the weekly status report instead.  Really couldn’t spend the whole day doing it and hence, spent the rest of the day reading the VTF menu volume one.  Kind of a daft thing to do but hey, what the hack!

First thing in the morning, I called up Ginger.  Thought I have given her enough nightmare.  Just an apology.  This whole thing is a total bad experience.  Guess one has to go through some tough time (and decision) from time to time.

Received an email from my sister this morning.  A bit worry about whether George and her will work out.  I mean, I don’t really know that guy that well.  And he doesn’t like taking photo with my sister.  As said by her, probably only less than 10 photos.  Kind of sad.  I think I should write her a nice email explaining some sense into her mind.

From next week onwards, I will be working like a refugee (hey, today was spring cleaning).  As there will be a new guy coming in especially for the MUE project, I will lose my crappy working place.  And I have to work in another office.  Pretty sad again.

I knocked off at 5:45 and Claude took me for a nice walk showing me all the nice places.  Somehow I started off the topic about girlfriend and he told me that he has lost his girlfriend after his Sydney trip.  Pretty sad (again), isn’t it?  I understand that he has been with this girl for 1 year and she told him that she is not good enough for him and so on.  And she has been avoiding him lately.  Very similar story.  How come when it comes to the breakup, the girl is always the gentle one?

As for Laurent, few days ago, he told me that he was married.  He looked kind of young and I was in shock.  He then told me that his marriage has only lasted for a few months and he wife has left France.  What is love?  Kind of fragile, isn’t it? (As quoted from my sister)  But now, Laurent is with another girl.

These strike me really hard.  Is it really so hard to maintain a relationship, I am asking myself.  Does it mean that love never conquer distance?  I always think that love should be strong enough to withstand just anything.

As for Aurore, she once had a boyfriend but he lived very far away from her.  In the end, after influenced by the people in the office, she has broken off from her lover.

Distance.

Back to what I have done tonight.  I went out with some of the BNP team and had dinner near the Sacred Heart Church.  Very impressed by the way I talk.  I mean I could never make any decent long conversation before.  Munchie (nake name) told me that I am very different from HK guy and Singapore guy.  In the end, he told me it is the value that is different.

Went to Champs-Elysees, Virgin Mega Store and bought the new Depeche Mode CD.

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So I Had Raw Beef

I felt so different today.  I have a new haircut and I wore contact lens.  Totally different and in such a jolly mood.

Received the reply from Benny, hence my feeling drops a bit.

Composed an email back to the office and it was kind of a complain.

Went into a bar kind of restaurant.  Ordered a set menu and had started of the day.  When the waiter tried to explain to me what it was, he told me that it was beef with vegetable on top.  In fact, the beef was raw.  Totally raw.  Guess I can take the Steak Tartar now!  I was so worried that the chicken in mushroom sauce was raw as well.  Lucky it wasn’t.

Have to busy reply to my friends.

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My Paris Collection – Name That Shall Be Spoken – Name That Shan’t Be Spoken

Names That Shall Be Spoken, if they are the source of life. Warm sunshine, beautiful waterfall, gentle breeze – Names That Shall Be Spoken. To unify love, to achieve the highs, to perform momentary magic – Names That Shall Be Spoken. To make history, to signify history, to be reminded of history and to contribute – Names That Shall Be Spoken. Stadium, people united, voices and waves, hope and expectation – Names That Shall Be Spoken.

To associate – Names That Shall Be Spoken.

The temptation of evil, suburban junks, the destroy of love, dictators and Big Brother, people united with war and blood – Names That Shan’t Be Spoken. The link to the painful memory, the pitfall of recurrent mistakes, the devil of emotional illusion, the nuclear state of mind – Names That Shan’t Be Spoken.

To alienate – Names That Shan’t Be Spoken.