I had nightmare again. Too many nightmare nowadays. Car crash, arrested by Chinese government, bullets in my legs, sick surgeon. I really can’t stand it.
The whole weekend alone. Mohamed didn’t call as promised. So lonely and my mind was set to JP again. What is love? What is hate? To love is to hate. To hate is to love. Do I still love her? But it is not love anymore if it is one-sided. So cruel of her to leave me alone here in Paris suffering the heartbreak. How can she? For we have been in love for four years. From time to time, I dream that she will be there when I return to Singapore. But why should I dream that for it has already been to late. Far too late for any remedy to take place. God doesn’t help me at all. Time heal? It isn’t true. Not true at all. I still feel the very pain even after 2 months.
I am yearning for everlasting true love.
Went to WH Smiths and bought the book “Hamlet”. Published by Oxford University Press of course. Watched the move “Michael Collin”. A tragedy. Too many tragedies nowadays. Had a Mexican meal in the cold. What else should I have done for my last weekend in Paris (this mission)?
I miss her so dearly. It is just not fair to the way it turns out. Why she dumped me? What’s wrong with me? And she is so happy. Yes, so happy without my presence. Shall I be happy for her for shall I be sad for myself. All my grief and sorrow and nothing can ever mend this broken heart of mine.
Life is so unfair. Life is so unpredictable. And she striped me down to nothing. Shatter my dreams, shatter my future, shatter all my hopes and leave me homeless in this foreign land, in Singapore. Striped away all the joy I was used to have.
Shall I welcome my next stage of life?
Got up quite late and went to my favourite cinema and bought a ticket for the show “Hamlet”. Dashed to my favourite restaurant (Japanese) and they opened it earlier especially for me.
Arrived just on time for the show and got a really lousy seat. Anyway it wasn’t that bad. Knowing the show would last for four hours, I came well mentally prepared.
A very good show indeed. The third Shakespeare show. And why do they always want to produce a tragic piece? I have no idea. In the end, Hamlet died.
Spent half a day doing an evaluation on the Technical Team. Another half a day having MUE meeting with Sophie and discussing the matter with Michel. That guy has a temper problem. Personally I don’t think he can handle the design at all. Mohamed was very curious on what I wrote on the evaluation but of course, that is confidential. For the eye of Aurore only.
Romeo and Juliet was on today, therefore I called up the BNP team. In the end, Karin, Puyee (?) and Munchie came along. All the literature was there. At first it was kind of strange to mix the modern setting with the old literature but as the story went along, you kind of get use to it.
Romeo was very cute (and handsome) and Juliet was very sweet. A very sad ending. Indeed, just too sad. It has such an impact on me!
Today was probably the best weekend I had so far. My good buddy Mohamed has come out and met up with me. He rang me up at midday (as promised) and told me that although Claude would not be able to join us tonight, he would be able to join me for the evening. I was so delighted as I was expecting that he would say no. And it took us 5 minutes to decide where to meet (as I don’t know Paris that well). I n the end, we decided to meet up at Chatelet FNAC.
We then took a walk to Saint Michel and in the end, we agreed to have Italian food. At first he told me that’s up to me and I replied him that I have been deciding where to go for food for the past don’t know how many nights, I would not decide tonight. And there you go, we had Italian food. The meal I would say was nothing fantastic at all but hey, I have a company.
And surprisingly, he didn’t want to go back home immediately after the meal and he even suggested going for a show. Wow! And this time I chose to watch Al Pacino’s “Looking for Richard”. (I asked Mohamed after we have been seated, “When was the last time you watched a movie.” He replied, “5 years ago”.)
I am a big fan of Al Pacino so to me, the show was great. You could really sit down for 2 hours simply appreciating his acting. Shakespeare’s work may somehow sound boring, but not this one. One may think that it is a documentary more than a film. I agree that there is certainly some element of documentary but without doing so, I don’t think more than 90% of the audience will enjoy it. The switch between the play and real life dialogue was fantastic. Everything at the right moment.
So what have I done today? Well, bought some fruit and actually seriously hunting (shopping) for a scarf and a pair of gloves and couldn’t find anyone I like. Maybe next weekend.