To Be or To Be Not

To be frank, let’s hope that I have already hit the lowest point of my emotion.  And I shall see a bright and clear path soon.

Easy said that done but at least I shall try to seek true happiness.

And not at all simple.

Got to sort out my work, my love, my friends and my family.

To some people, I may be lucky.  To be single and lead a non-commit life.  Free to see any body I like, free to do whatever I like.

The bottom line is: I have to experience as much as possible when I am young.

My heartbreaks, my disappointing role in the project, the slipping of my friends, the family back in Hong Kong I need to take care of really soon.  The question is: shall I emerge in my non-prosperous love life, probably pursuing something that will end up like soap bubble? To be or not to be …

But which way to go? 

Lost

I lost my watch tonight.

What happened to me this year?  I have lost my first girlfriend after 4 years of relationship.  I now lost my watch which has been with me for 4 years.

At that very moment, I am afraid of losing anything at all. In life, you just cannot take things for granted.  What if I lose CC?

Oh God, I just don’t want to think about it.

I need time. I just need time.

Uncertainty

It has been quite a long time since I have become so moody during work.  There is so much uncertainty between me and CC.  Sometimes I cannot feel that loving feeling any more.  But why?  We went to Walmart together and it all seems to sparkle again.  I hope we can still ‘sparkle’ after her boyfriend has left.

God, I love that girl.